took from my roommate blog....just saw this eventhough it happen last week...
Desperate, scared and alone
It was the first time in my life that I actually felt so scared
and desperate and alone.
It wasn't my friends fault at all, that I got lost.
It was myself I couldn't think well.
The directions was pretty easy and yet
I couldn't think well and I was basically blur
and stoned all the time. I was too tired despite
driving all day long, and got lost the minute I was at KL.
It wasn't that bad when I first got here,
I don't know the way home but I managed to drive around,
looked at beautiful buildings, went to places that I've never thought existed.
Until Hooi Gee asked Joshua to help me.
We met at Tropicana City, then we got our way home to Hooi Gee's.
It was only when I find my way back to Sunway..
I got lost and I felt extremely scared.
I couldn't think well after hookah-ing.
I can't see the road properly, my eyes were so tired,
I just want to close my eyes and give up.
Dropped Hooi Gee and Joshua back to their place.
I remembered clearly at Tropicana City, turn right,
after 6 fly-overs I must stay at my left then turn before the toll.
It was as simple as that. And yet I don't know how to follow the directions given.
I drove, after the third fly-over, Giant was supposed to be on my right/left
I don't remember. I can't see any Giant
after the fourth fly-over, I was supposed to see Digital something.
Nothing looked familiar. So I kept on driving....
and driving....... and driving.......
where the road was empty and it was all straight.
It was dark and I reached a toll.
I wondered if the toll was the toll they told me about.
I searched for any left turn before the toll..
There wasn't any left turn only left lane for the bikers.
I reversed and turned to the Smart Tag lane.
I don't know where I was but the further I go,
I realised that I was getting to middle of no where.
Nothing looked familiar. And I began to panic.
Stopped at some petrol station to ask for directions.
Then only, I knew I was so far away from Sunway.
Passed back the toll .
Smart Tag couldn't be read. I don't know whats wrong.
Used my touch n' go card can't be read.
Reversed my car and was so scared because the cars were moving so fast.
Then I kept on reversing until I managed to turn to
the normal lane. I nearly bang into someone's car. But fuck that.
Drove my way back, I dont remember anything.
I can't really see the signboard.
My vision was blur.
My petrol was so little about two more tanks.
Getting lost, I used about 1 and a half tank of petrol.
I've drove into many places.
Then only I realised I was back to Bangsar,
Mid valley.. it was getting darker almost 12.
I was worried I couldn't enter my hostel despite
it was already 12 and the rules clearly stated
the gate will be closed at 12 and what about me ?
I am driving aaaaaaaaaaa car!
Couldnt think of anything was so scared.
Wanted to call for help but then I realised
my phone was out of battery.
I was nearly on the brink of stopping at a place
and just fuck everything and don't care about everything.
Then I realised I have not enough petrol to do that.
I realised I was alone, and I can't get any help from anyone.
Nobody is going to help me, my eyes were full with tears
when I drove... as I was looking for a taxi to at least lead me
way back to Sunway.
I saw some taxi driver at some place.
Braked at full speed and turned to the left.
When I got out of my car, I saw the taxi driver,
I cried and I told him what happened.
He sort of comfort me and asked me not to worry anything.
He will lead me back to Sunway .
Everything was okay by then followed him.
Reached Sunway in about 30 minutes.
Stopped at Sunway college.
Got down then only realised I don't have any money.
But the taxi driver was so nice.
I was so desperate that I begin to ask money from
the guard house from anyone that passed by.
There was a guy, I think he is a student ?
International student ?
He asked me how much do I need and stuff.
So he told me to take it.
I had tears, I was so glad and grateful that
someone was willing to lend me money.
I swore to him that I will return the money.
He said its okay just take it. I feel guilty
and I took down his number and swore again I will return the money.
Paid the taxi driver, he thanked me.
I paid him extra using the stranger's money.
He was thankful and asked me to calm down everything is alright.
and then he drove away.
When I reached my hostel, the guards wouldn't let me in.
It was late. I begged my way in.
I begged them to let me in just for one night.
I looked desperate and I have tears .
They finally let me in.
It was all good then. I took all my luggages back into my room.
Then I went to the garden but I saw a bunch of students happily
playing guitar and singing.
So I went to the stairs. I was breathing heavily and
I can't stop crying.
It didn't sound like a big deal maybe to some of you.
But I was so scared. It was late I was lost, I had no money
no petrol and my cellphone battery was out.
I just can't stop crying for the whole night.
Nobody was there to help me.
Not even my own dad or my friends.
I was alone...... and so scared.
And I can't think properly or see clearly.
I spent my night at the stairs crying alone.
Until someone approached me and asked me what happened.
I didnt really tell her. But she was around me to comfort me.
She said everything will be fine....
I remember that clearly. I thanked her and hugged her
this happen to her last week...
on wed...
that night yep she did come back late at night...
and why didnt i notice that she is sad and panic??
oh god...
such a bad roommate i am...haiz...
well i guess this is wat happen to us the lonely ones....
there is no one there to help u...
duno who to call when having problems...
duno who will be there to help...
i guess this is all of the loneliness...
when my laptop spoil thats wat i feel...
i noe my condition isnt that bad...
but yet...
who i wan to find when i need help??
seriously i duno and i'm clueless....
even when my dad let me have my car here and i have the same prob wit her...
wat can i do??
omg...
luckily she meet a nice taxi driver...
luckily not anyone bad...
seriously........
for me i duno wat 2 do...
my dad is turning 60 next year...my mum 58...
all probably thinking my parents should be young..
but no...
they are old already...
seriously i'm freaking scare if i lose them...
i duno wat 2 do at all...
most of the time i wish i would go b4 them...
coz without them i duno wat 2 do at all....
witout them seriously i going to be all alone...
hopeless then....
someone help me~~~~
