emo

duno y this few days i'm very emo...haiz...having topic test 2moro and assignment due next mon...n yet i hvnt reli start on the assignment yet =(
college life isnt that fun anymore...tons of assignment waiting for me to complete....
chee khoon bro...i noe u goin singapore 2day....hope u hv a nice time there...i so gona miss u very much.....y after every1 goes away then only we will appreciate them???y every human nature is like that???when v hv them by the side then v will nvr think bout them...but then when they r goin away v will appreciate them more n wishes that they will nvr ever go away from us??no matter wat i miss u n i hope u can get a good job there....=)
 and u.....u noe who u r...can u plz just get away from my view...just go as far as possible from me plz....i reli cant stand looking at u being like that...each time i c u,after that i will feel emo...i oso duno y....i let go my feelings so long ago...n yet each time i look at u i will still feel emo...can u plz dont ever appear in front of me...dont ever smile infront of me coz it will melt my heart,,..n then after that i will feel very bad n emo....plz..plz...plz b out of my sight....i cant bear to look at u anymore.....looking at u will just make me cry later....plz...i'm a very emotional person...so dont ever mess wit my feelings....i ownself oso cant control my feelings and emotion...y cant u just change class as it was arranged???y u still wan to change back to all my classes....mayb u duno i was looking at u from far...bt yet looking at u from far oso make me suffer....just please get out of my mind.....dont ever let me c u again plz....
n yet i realise that since i come down to pj...i sort of lost my best fren...i'm will nvr b the 1st 1 she find when she have problem...got anythings she oso just share wit other ppl....theres no more sharing between us...each time when i c she look for other ppl 1st n nvr look for me it makes me feels very very bad n sad....it kinda hurts me when make me think that i losing a best fren....is it just my luck or wat??i would nvr get a best n close fren....since last time i hv a lot of frens betray me....it reli hurts me a lot...it hurts me reli reli much....n yet now i losing another best fren....it makes me feel like i'm losing all my supports...there wont b any 1 support me anymore....no one would b there anymore....i'm all alone again now....all alone....
duno y...each time i wan to sleep,i sure cry....my tears sure flow without i realise....i just cant stop the tears from flowing....i ownself oso duno...am i that sad person till i need to cry???i ownself duno y i'm crying....i only noe that my tears sure flow everynight b4 i sleep....wat else can i do other than just let the tears flow it self???mayb its the way for me to cool down n let all pass b gone and have a good start the next day....hope i can score well in test 2moro....n i miss u bro n sis....

emo (specially for u)

everyone is leaving kuantan now...haiz....even ah khoon oso leaving already....n i'm like the last one to know bout it....=(
soon kuantan would b a boring place...no moe outings for all of us liao....so gona miss all my cousin...2 of them in singapore,one in kl,1 in cyberjaya n me alone in sunway =(
i reli miss all our outings....holiday 2gether etc...eventhough i nvr reli hv a lot outings wit them,...but still all those little outings bring reli good memories for me....the last holiday wit them is like 4 years ago???around  when i'm form 2....the ipoh n pangkor trip...i reli hope theres a trip like that again....i reli reli hope theres that trip again...i miss that time so much...now every1 is so far away....theres no chance to go anywer liao.......i reli wan a trip wit them.....but everything seems to b impossible liao....
hmm eventhough i very very little wit them.....but still i miss all of them....i reli reli reli miss them...miss the time wit them....T.T
hmm time wit wong chee khoon....eventhough i'm not reli close wit them...but still i can feel that he care for me as a bro...just as wat i wan since last time.....i reli reli will miss u wong chee khoon when u go to singapore....i reli miss u bro....hope that u have a nice time there....got anything need help then call me lar.....i will try to help u as much as possible....goin to singapore its oso my wish...eventhough i'm kinda jealous watching u get to go there...but still i wish u will b happy there and get a good job there....u go there alone just like me coming here alone....at least got ppl come with me,,,but then u go there alone....i hope u will b fine there....
bro hope u hv a great time there....so gona miss all of u .....every1 goin away liao........ =(
all this is wat i reli want to tell u....but then i nvr dare to tell all of u....good luck!! hope u wont have a bad time like me....godd luck1!!gambateh chee khoon!!!sumore this is the 1st time u go so far away without ppl goin wit u.....hope u will b fine there....gambateh!!!! =)

aiks!!!

got the worse course mate ever!!!go out nvr tell at all!!!!make me wait for them to do the assignment!!!go die lar!!!shit!!!fucker!!!bloody hell go die la u all!!!!!go eat shit la!!!!!bull shit!!!!go eat shit!!!

gona sleep when they cime back n just ingnore those pig!!!reli pig!!!reli fucker!!!go die la!!!

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hmm!!!!excited!!!!goin back ktn this fri!!!yeah!!!!!Hehehe...omg cant wait to go back le...hahahaha
appointment wit olv on sat!!!hehehe =)
so long no outings wit her liao....n gt 2 find my heels n shirt!!!!ugh!!!!mafan la....haiz...heels...hope olv found 1 for me 2day....haiz....so mafan my course...hehe
haiz...voting 2:2...me n melissa wana complain to tchr but en en n june dun wan...haiz...hw le..hv 2 just gv him the credit la....shit la...hate him!!go die la...hope next assignment can change group...so wana kick him out of the group!!!!go die stupid pig!!!!
haiz...4get bout the pig...so many assignment liao..haiz...math,english,n critical thinking...luckily accounts,culture and ideas and malaysian studies no assignment yet....hehehe...math on this fri,english next next week,critical thinking next next next week...haiz....n yet my formal shirts and heels still dont have...haiz....n pants!!!!! still duno the pants suitable or not!!!haiz...gona take back ktn to try all over...haiz haiz,,,,
dont reli noe wan post bout wat...so plan to simply write ny,....haiz....but i damn sleepy lar...haiz haiz....duno y....feel like sleeping already...haiz...this few days reli reli sleepy lar...haiz....
k complain time...
i reli reli gt the worse frens ever....bloody hell!!!hate them so much lo!!!hope wont c them 4ever!!!!i wan move to other country!!!!dun wan stay here!!!!!worse frens ever la...including the melissa...go die la...everything all i do...her part oso i must do....go die lo....dun feel like helping her complete the slide....so sleepy i wan sleep argh!!!!!its so damn unfair lo coz v hv 2 do so many n yet they so bloody hell little...haiz......its just so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!go die lar!!!!!
waiting for olv reply my tweets...kinda forget she at mmh now...haiz....gona wait till she finish teaching...haiz.....

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hmm...its been some time since i last blog...(just a few days...hehehehe)
hmm duno y now blog lesses liao....hehehe...
coz no topic???
ntg 2 say???
or internet sucks....hehehehehe
hmmm no more news bout him....hahahaha
coz i'm in a few different classes wit him liao...hahaha
hmm....(the pig just on9 so all my status is appear offline....hehehehe)
the pig...reli duno wat 2 say bout him liao....
reli reli a pig...
hahaha...a name that i think after chatting wit my cousin sis about him....hahahaha
omg...i;m cold....but i'm just too lazy to get up n control the aircond or take the blanket....hahaha
i was wondering y am i emoing the last few days....wat thing has happen....anything???hmm
i oso duno...just wan to b emo....
coz i oso duno wat 2 do....haiz....
i just realise that since i'm in kl i bcum more and more blur,....
when my period come i also duno...i didnt even count the days...haiz....
then it just suddenly come 2day...i was quite surprise...but when i count back,it was late a few days liao....but still i'm so blur....
or mayb that the reason y i'm so blur....coz i'm tired n sleepy....
haiz....
overspent again...just took out rm200 on wed n 2day just only fri...left with rm60 only....haiz haiz haiz...reli need to save lo...plz stop me from going to sunway pyramid,...i use so much money dy...n yet i still hvnt found another shirt n heels for my presentation...haiz....i didnt reli count how much i use....but i think got around rm1000 dy....1 month only...rm1000...its a lot...a lot...too much liao...haiz...must bajet now....hmm shampoo,soap n facial products can last me for a few more months...so no more money on that!!!hmm should i try to count around how much i use???i dont reli remember....i noe i took out rm400 from bank...then my mum gt gv me rm100...that comes to rm500....hmm then how much my dad gv ah????the 1st time i cum is bout rm300???then i go back ktn another rm200????then qing ming i go back he gv me rm 100/200????hmm as i estimate its around rm 1000 lo....omg thats a lot!!!!must start saving....pokai!!!!!go back ktn must take my personal money cum...but....my that personal money cant last me for 5 years here le....i just here for 1 month ny....n my personal money is aroun rm1000-1500...i cant reli remember...haiz.....reli emoing...spend too much money....haiz...
reli must save....left wit rm 60 only b4 goin back ktn nextt fri.....hmm...rm60 for 6 days???i think i can do it!!!!
better write a plan here 1st!!!must follow!!!
sat aka 2moro:only take 1 meal around rm5!!
sun : hmm 1 meal rm5 only..(or mayb i should diet like my roommate...just eat fruits n vege....i dun hv vege but got apples...apples can keep me full!!!)
mon class over at 2.30pm...go tapao sumtin around rm5...thats my lunch n dinner!!!
tues :hmm get something light or buy bread ny n then sumtin rm5 for dinner...
wed class over at 2.30pm...get sumtin rm 5 for lunch n dinner....
thurs no class...hmm approximately left bout rm30 sumtin....hope dun go sunway pyramid lo...if goin pyramid then hv 2 press money out again...eat there damn exp lo....haiz...
reli gona save!!!!damn poor liao me....
hmm still thinking wan buy boys in the city 3 ma...its just 2 support them...but its bloody exo!!!!haiz haiz.....should i get it????hmm......

freak

omg u r just freaking annoying!!!!just get lost la...damn regret knowing u man!!!just hate u so much!!!noe u kl guy...n mr prefect...so get out n get ur own frens...dun depend on ppl only!!!shit!!!n stop complain bout classes!!!dun go if u dun wan go!!no one ever ask u go!!such a freak n sissy...complain this n that...go die la....so wat if u r rich!!!noe la u can go taylors then change to sunway!!noe la u freaking rich!!but not every1 in sunway is rich!!!so wat if u hv money!!u afford to buy but some ppl dont!!so just get lost!!after this group work i so dun wan 2 b in same group wit u anymore!!
n plz stop annoy me at yahoo/msn...just get lost!!!yahoo can block ppl ma??inform me if u noe got i wan block this freaking annoying guy!!!!
btw r u deaf or blind???can c or read ah???blind!!!
all start yest...hmm english class...thanks to melissa for choosing him in the group...n yet he dun wan gv any help...thanks for being so selfish!!!thx to u mr freak for spoiling the debate!!!its a freaking debate!!!not self intro!!!!no one ask u 2 talk bout ur self!!!n coz of ur selfishness make us so damn fucking malu!!!!if u fucking duno wats debate ask n discuss wit us!!!its a fucking group work!!!!making us malu coz u wer talking crap n talking bout urself only!!!n then its totally out of topic idiot!!!
n 2day do u hv any manners??? theres so many other places wit power supply n yet u wan to halau a old man go away coz u wan use the power supply near it!!!shit lo u!!!its a old man n cant reli walk n yet u ask him move away!!!get lost la u!!!!
n cum so close wit ppl 4 wat!!!!who is close wit u la freak!!!n brush u freaking teeth!!!bloody hell damn smelly when u talk!!!n stop copying ppls work!!!i do the work not just 2 let u copy!!!so do ur freakign own work!!!n oso u reli hv no manners lo!!!!n thanks so mmuch for dropping my calculator(sorry sounds like reli xiao chi but then i reli cant stand him!!!)n my pencil!!!u noe wat he say after dropping my things???/oh drop liao ah????nvm la can buy new one...so cheap ny...FUCKER!!!!!! for u things can b cheap!!!!but the rm50 for a calculator can b a lot for me!!!!i can eat so many meals already!!!noe la u kl guy got plenty of money!!!but then i wan save my money!!!!rm50 can b little to u but its a lot to me!!!!theres so many things i can buy k freak!!!n then i ask wers my pencil???u drop it just now....he can answer me oh i got drop ur pencil ah???aiyo no need find la buy new de!!!!FUCK OFF la....buy buy buy!!!everything buy!!!u only noe how 2 buy buy buy!!!noe la u freaking rich!!!but each cent its valueble to me ok!!!!kl things r freaking exp n noe u r rich but i'm freaking poor k!!!!
 n stop being mr sissy n a complain king!!!its like wth while talking wit u!!u r suck a jerk lo!!!freaking jerk!!!!all coz yest....went to lunch box helping melissa asking for a job...the restaurant is nice n not dirty at all..he can say y u all wan work in such a terrible enviroment....bullshit la u...if that enviroment teruk then wat bout orange cafe???orange cafe its like so small place n hot..lunch bos is a aircond restaurant...which 1 better le idiot!!!then got the job i n melissa go orange cafe tapau,...then u noe wat the idiot say???orange cafe food do many ajinomoto....duh...as though v got other choice...then complain enough la....u noe wat he freaking do when he reach there???he order n eat oso...=.=!!!!! hmm i wonder wat happen to many ajinomoto le????noe la u got homecook food..then go back home b ur prince at home la....
then 2day at meeting wear diff clothes then at class diff clothes...ask him y???oh orange cafe smelly la...bloody hell...wan complain then dun go la....fucking shit lo u......
n then at yahoo messenger just now....hey can gv me ur uer name n password ah???i was like =.=!!!who r u n wth i wan gv u my username n password la????u r a total stranger fir me n y must i fucking gv u my passowrd!!!!then i just say la i cant remember my username n my card wit my roommate....my rommate NOT HOME YET....i mention that k...then he ask who???? i say monash student....then he say o....monash geng wor....intro to me NOW!!!NOW!!!did i or did i not mention SHE NOT HOME YET??!!!bloody hell read ur msg la....then i say she not in....then u noe wat he fuckin say????aiyo dun so bad la...intro her to me la.....ask her cum chat wit me NOW...bloody hell....is he blind....then i say i gtg....u noe wat he fuckign reply???y go so fast...pui me chat la...hey mr sissy...got find ur own fren k!!!i'm not ur fren n dun wan b fren wit a sam8 like u....just go away!!!!

so sorry if i sounded like such a xiao chi gui here...but then i reli cant tahan him...he reli annoy me....i dun wan b xiao chi....but then omg u c his reli person reli reli reli beh tahan!!!!!reli kek sei ny...haiz.....sorry for this long post ar....its just watever he annoy me....sorry 4 being a xizo chi gui bt i'm not k...just towards this idiot...hehehe.=) back.....

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haiz...for the 1st time....i reli cant solve any maths ques....it so damn difficult n complicated....argh!!!so damn difficult to understand wat the question wan ar!!!!kek sei lo....aiyoyo....make me read till pening liao n wan die ar...n my eyes reli blur argh!!!kek sei!!!

haiz.....n then its so sad n kek at the same time...i dont think i can last staying wit her...just cant stand her stupid attitude....can u dont b so selfish???damn teruk la u...even ur roommate u dun care....just think bout ur self only...u r the worse person i ever c!!!kek sei ar!!!u wan b the leader...n yet u dont want to do work...everything wan gv other ppl do...its so damn unfair k!!!teruk!!!useless...n then u wan go work..then wer got time to discuss group work...b in the same group wit u reli teruk!!!haiz...n kesian en en la...y must u b so selfish!!!!reli reli selfish!!!think bout ur self but not ur roommate!!!so dam terrible k!!!n then aiyo...reli dun wan in the same group wit u la....but then coz v r house mate its just too diff to reject!!!haiz haiz....

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i duno wat title to put for this..haiz...it goin to b rojak!!!HAhhaha

1st. note to my self!!!dun ever simply add ppl especiall add a lot in one time or u will b confuse....
 -so great of me for adding so call all my classmate at one time...sound so gud rite n frenly add so many ppl...but then sure will tersalah org de....well for me!!!i reli tersalah org...thx coz got 2 ppl name johnathan...so i reli is tersalah org.....damn shitty lo...haiz...paisei!!!!argh!!!!wrong ppl le...aiyoyo...reli reli paiseh...i quickly delete off his post coz its reli paiseh argh!!!!hope i wont c him at all in college!!!argh!!!paiseh!!!!yu pei argh!!!!dun ever simply add ppl!!!!!!!!!argh!!!!kek sei my ownself!!!!!argh!!!!!

2nd....hmmm...wat i wan write....aiyo...i reli miss ktn le...get emotional after reading mum msg say she miss me....but coz my ego i nvr say i miss her at all....haiz...i reli miss home n miss homecook food ar,,,,feel so bad for shouting at my mum b4 cuming to kl last week.....coz of the h1n1 make me so scare n i accidentally scolded my mum....n yet i didnt appologize....haiz....i feel so bad....but coz i'm ego...haiz....mummy i'm so sorry.....n mayb coz read mym msg say shes cooking...i miss home cook food.....i even dream of eating homecook food at home......i wan eat my mum cook de food....the next round i back oso wont hv chance coz got dinner...haiz......y kl foods sucks la...haiz....

3rd.....wat else i wan wirte???i noe i'm super bored lo...haiz haiz haiz.....sat n sun stay at condo got ntg to do...all alone only....haiz...my roommate n housemate all go out hangkai...leave me all alone here....haiz...bored bored bored.....so sien ar!!!super siens lo!!!!!

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just saw eunhyukie cyworld side bar update...he is sick...T,T
omg...hope he get well soon...2nite is the concert...hope he is ok.....get well soon hyukie...he just recover from H1N1 not long ago...luckily he is safe...omg hyukie u must take care of ur health ar...dont always get sick....i feel so worry le....get well soon...omg i wish i was beside him now then i can take care of him le...hyukie oppa get well ar,,,i'm so worry...aiks.....hyukie......

n bout just now.....no matter wat,hyukie n sungminie is always the no1 in my heart...
luckily sungminie is okie....oif not i will b double worry....get well soon hyukie
n good luck 4 the concert hyukie n sungminie......
suju hwaiting!!!!oppa hwaiting!!!!eunhyukie hwaiting!!!sungminie hwaiting!!!!

=)

hahahaha...chatting wit olv 2day...exchanging korean songs wit her....hahahah..at last she like korean songs...hahaha...but the song i duno de...big bang...very famous but still i duno them....hahhaha..hmm she recommend me wedding dress by taeyang...nice!!!!Hahaha...addicted to another korean song liao....hehehe...trying to make her addicted to suju but fail...haiz...donghae over cute(hahaha 1st time hear),siwon ok,heechul ok,hankyung not her taste,kyuhun gayish....hahahah..skip ryeowook,kangin,shindong,leeteuk,sungminie,kibum no,yesung big nose....hahahaha...n last but not least eunhyukie....heheheh..she say he look like zhang dong liang....hahahaha...patut la...my taste seems like nvr change....hehehehehe...dbsk n shinee no!!hahaahaha....hmm cant get her like any suju songs....hmm marry u not her taste though its very romantic....hahahaha,..then theres no one like me,you are the one....hmm she dun reli like...then CNBlue...hehehehhe....teardrops in the rain caught her attention....hahhaaaha...well in the end ntg will replace wedding dress by taeyang in her heart.....hahahahah.....n i still wit my suju oppa....hehehehehe.

hmm actually i plan to delete all my post bout him....it seems like a total obsess...i getting over it liao....hahahaha...gona delete all of those post soon....hehehehehe......

nightmare....

wow...hvnt had this dream long time liao...hmm did i do anything wrong nowdays???did i do something wrong to him...well i dont wan menyusahkan him anymore...i'm still thinking did i do something wrong till i got such a nightmare...or maby its gona happen n asking me dont do anything...hmm...been thinking bout it the whole day...n yet...still cant figure it out...haiz haiz...well or mayb i'm a very menyusahkan person...omayb they separate us coz i'm the bad luck to him...if not y i cant noe the truth....y my parents nvr tell me b4 he is my bro???eventhough its just only step brother...but still i dont mind...n y is he alwayz ignoring me....he angry at me coz i make him lose a step parents???but still my dad still pay a lot of things for him...n yet y???y i cant noe that he is my bro???y i only get some clue n hint from my cousin n aunt...y cant just my parents tell me....but yet i dont have the courage to ask them...i dont know how or wat 2 ask...n yet now my relationship wit him is that bad...i dont wan do anything make him feel worse...i dont want to make him angry....or mayb suddenly i remember bout the incident i make him got scolding...its just bcoz of the stupid rumour by his mum n my mum...y must they start such a rumour...y must they fight...in the end the ones that got hurt is me n him...y??y???y make me ask such a stupid ques...its all started wit my cousin sis stupid rumour n his mum...n then my mum go sibuk....y wan start rumours.....in the end not u all suffer....its the person who got blame that will suffer...y???y like that...coz of that incident make me feel bad until now...i make me feel very very bad....until now i still cant foegive myself for starting to ask that ques n make him got scolding...y???i dont ever wan to ask anything like that anymore...i dont wan him to get hurt anymore...i dont wan him to get scolding anymore...n the last i dont wan our relationship bcum worse...i'm happy to hear that i hv a bro...but yet.....ur attitude towards me make me feel very bad...am i ur bad luck???if reli is...i dont mind staying far away from u coz u r my only brother...ur attitude towards me is bad...but yet i feel happy coz u not treating me like that only...at least i noe u doesnt hate me that much coz thats how u treat other cousins too...but still b more happy n frenly....the stupid cousin is complaining bout u....i dont wan u get hurt anymore...plz....n yet i guess i better not sibuk or 8 in anything bout u in the future unless u need help...or else i scare i will cause u get scolding again... i promise i wont go near u in the future...i guess the dream is like a warning to me....

opps...

opps...i spend too much 2day...hahaha...bought facial products,foods,shampoo etc till rm423!!!!!rm 423!!!!!!!!!!1st time spend so much in a day ar!!!omg!!!!!!!!so gona stop spending for the next fews months...i guess all the facial product n shampoo can last for the next few months...hv 2 spend wisely lo...such a spender i am...so gona stop spending...no more sunway pyramid for me....n aiks!!!>.< i forgot i wan buy suju boys in the city 3....rm200++...another big amount of money goin away....stop spending!!!!n i guess i hv 2 eat lesser...the food here damn exp....3 pieces of keropok rm1...2 pieces pisang goreng oso rm1....bloody hell damn exp argh!!!!in ktn i can get 10 pieces n here 3 pieces only...bloody hell lo...so hv 2 stop eating cafeteria food...opps then wat i wan to eat le??aiyoyoy....y la so damn exp...wan vomit blood ar....exp!!!! aiyoyo...n 2 pieces wer can full....rm 1 for 10 pieces more than full lo...now 3 pieces ny better dun eat le....haiz....i noe i queen of complain but still if i dun complain i dun feel right...coz its damn exp la...n 2day the chap fan...bloody hell exp oso..rm6.40...damn exp ar!!!!!n yet i didnt eat all...such a waste...but still its so terrible...dun feel like eating at all...after eat a few mouths feel like vomit sumore le....eww....coz it really sucks....haiz...i only can say that i reli spend n waste a lot of money today.....

n i thnk i so crazy...emoing n missing him....who is he la...wth i wan miss him...hope he hv 2 change class....then i dont need c him anymore n wont miss him....

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great.......i type....so damn long liao..........n then.............deleted everything..............argh!!!!!!!!!!!i think i just shorten it la...hmm i n him sit kinda far...i sit in front n he sit bhind...hahaha its like 2 rows away ny....hehehehe....then hor when i turn behind he straight look at me wor...or i over sensitive???hmm.....over sensitive i think....hahahaha...then pur tchr gv us toilet break....hahahaha..toilet break.....hehehehe...coz its too cold in the class n a lot ppl wan go toilet...hahahaha...then as usual...i wont stay in class...hmm..then i went out wit my fren coz v r frezzing....hahaha..then he was there too..but i n my frens hang at somewer near...hahahah..each time i turn my head i saw him...looking at me...or mayb my fren???hmmmm then duno y he walk pass my frens n i...he seem like wan talk something....but dun dare.....hahahaha...then he n evan like wan join in our conversation...but didnt....hahahaha..well i hope he talk wit me....but didnt...haiz....but still he is very cute..but i dont reli dare to look at him..*shy shy* hahahah...hmm thats all wat happen 2day...ohya....did i say i was standing damn near n rite beside him in lift yest....omg!!!!Hahahaha  n he talk wit me yest!!!or sort of borrowing stapler from me ny...haiz...but he touch my hand!!!(i'm totally crazy)well hmm akward moment....hahaha...

great!!! i go college to study not 2 kap zhai!!!argh!!!!!shit shit shit...hv 2 think lesser bout him!!!argh!!!!!!! hv 2 study hard!!!!!! eunhyukie saranghae!!!!!

tired....

i feel tired here...my class only start bout 2 weeks ago...n yet now i'm starting to feel tired.....a thought came to my mind...should i just leave everything here n go back ktn for form 6???i miss my ktn frens...i miss form4 n5 life...i feel like goin back to ktn....or mayb i'm homesick....i just wan get out of here....its only 2 weeks...i scare of the future....i scare of wat goin to happen...i been asking my ex roommate bout the course...its difficult....each time i hear bout it i feel scare....i'm a coward....i'm just too scare....i scare i cant complete my task....i scare i cant do anything in class....i hv extra weakness among the others....i feel scare talking in front of ppl...which makes my course more difficult than others....can i survive here???can i do it???all this question keep linger in my mind....i my ownself oso dont have confident to do it....if i stop n and go back to ktn....a lot of money will b wasted....all my parents money...i bet in this 2 weeks mayb i use 10k already.....i shouldnt spend my parents money like water....they work hard to earn it....everything here is exp...i cant reli afford it...n i dont have any good frens here...all i hv is frens that like to take advantage of each other...like to take advantage of me...i dun hv enough money 2 spend on my self....(i got but i just wan save it)..i wan to save my money for myself n not to spend on others....omg i just hate my housemate aka my classmate...just hate her so much...hope next sem i wont get the same class wit her...but i wan the same class wit en en...en en is nice...i just hope melissa isnt here....then things would b better....can i do it???can i survive here for another 5 years....5years yet 2 come...n yet 2 weeks only i start to complain....can i do it???plz gv me some courage...i need it....

05/04/2010

yeaterday was hyukie oppa birthday....but i didnt reli post something to wish him happy birthday....i feel so bad n yet sorry....its was like not a correct time to celebreate for him...i though of spamming my facebook n twitter wall with all his birthday wishes.....but i didnt do it.....hyukie oppa!!!!happy birthday!!!!omg i wish i reli can c u n u r infront of me!!!! i reli reli wan c u....hyukie oppa!!!!!!!saranghae!!!!! i will always love u!!!!n happy belated birthday!!!!!

hmm....wat happen in class le 2day.....hmm...i was kinda late for the 1st class...not actually late but still a lot ppl there dy la....then hor,...he hor...go sit wit the bitch,,,argh!!!or mayb he sit there then the bitch go sit with him????haiz...hate that bitch....but then...hmm at least at that class i can concerntrate....hahahaha....
then after that....i went to canteen to get some food...saw him eating there....hehehehe...eating fries rice....hehehhe...then i went up class 1st...hmm then english lesson...the class so small n doesnt hv enough place 2 sit...then he sit bhind me....heheh..y la he always either sit in front or bhind me....y???but then....he sit infront or bhind me oso...he got notice me mar....i dun think so lo...i so ugly n fat...who wan notice me wor....haiz haiz....but then 2day he talk 2 me!!argh...i damn crazy la...he he touch my hand???i touch his hand???or he touch my hand????duno la...i noe got touch ny....hahahaha...but forget the feeling liao....hahahahah
well its more like i forget him liao...dun reli care bout him dy lo....haha..just write for fun here coz i'm damn wu liao....hehehe.bored bored bored...aiyo goin 2 b fat lo...eating potato wedges at 8.30 pm...n sleepy liao...haiz...saty here eat more ny ar...stay at apartment can exercise n eat less...haiz haiz....
hmm i still prefer kfc cheesy wedges....hehehehe..thats much nicer,.....ohya....i found my senior studying here too...hehehe...saw him a lot times liao...around 4 or 5 times...but still he seems like dun noe me...hmm....or mayb he reli forget me liao...well actually i oso duno wats his name...hahhahaha....i think he oso duno wats my name lo....hehehehe..then should just act duno ny ah???hmm...i guess thats wat i gona do...act duno him till he say something...hehehe..well who cares he noe me or not..hahaha...but still should i search his name n call him????but of he duno or forget me liao oso no use ma....hahaha...dun care la....

ohya n ktn frens....plz take care of ur health k.....H1N1 is very serious there ar...my niece renice just pass away because of it...hate H1N1!!!!anti H1N1!!!!!y la....y la wan take renice life....shes only 4 years old....hvnt experience the whole life...shes such a gud girl...doesnt deserve this at all....y la....her bdae just over....she only excatly 4 years old...now i hope janice,kenny alvin n yan yan will get well soon...dont let anything happen to u!!!!stay strong!!!!u all must b alrite ah!!!!jia you!!!!! a yi here pray hard 4 u all!!!!god these kids doesnt deserve that....renice is already a big lost to all of us...v dont want to lost any1 of them sumore...renice doesnt deserve that so does the other kids....god...plz let them b safe....we love them no matter wat....plz let them b safe...they r very imprtant to us......

in memorial of renice lim...

such a bute n happy go lucky girl....n yet lose her life to H1N1....renice....we will always remember u....u will always b in my heart....i love you......

regret

i feel bad...very very bad....i'm the worse aunt 1 ever have i think...yest when renice pass away....i didnt get to go n visit her n her sis....i'm so sorry...i'm determine to go to ur funeral...but i didnt go....i didnt even noe the funeral was brought forward till just now when i come back....

renice....i'm so sorry...i'm like the worse aunt ever...i didnt get 2 visit u the last time n i didnt go to ur funeral....i'm so sorry....i'm reli sorry....this is my worse regret ever....nvr send my cute little small niece for the last time....i'm so sorry n i'm reli very very sorry...i hope u understand......renice,i love you...i will always love u n remember u...u will always b in my heart...the story u show me,us i will nvr forget.....i will always love u.....alway in my heart....forever n ever....I LOVE YOU.....

childrens....

parents!!!dun ever ignore ur children n let other ppl take care of them...u wan to gv birth to them then u should take the full resposible of them...dont just throw it to other ppl especially maid...the maids are not their mother and could not take care of them properly....childrens need their parents love...thats wat they need the most...they need it as their support....parents should love them always n forever...they are related to you..the blood flowing in their body contains same dna wit u all....dun ever ignore them....if u wan give birth to them n just pass them to the maid better u dont gv birth at all!!!!!!they are mend to b loved....they are not ur toys.....dont ....dont ever treat them badly................dun ever ignore them....its extremely pity for them....DONT!!!!dont ever treat them badly!!!!!!NO!!!!!!

today,....03/04/2010
i learn the most valueable lesson...it didnt reli happen to me....but its my niece....i just cant stop thinking bout it coz its unfair!!!!UNFAIR!!!!shes only 4 years old....shes so young n innocent....she doesnt deserve to b like that....(or mayb god is fair...god doesnt want her to suffer anymore....but still....shes just 4 years old....her birthday just pass.....)thers no one else to blame other than her parents...its because they are selfish!!!!SELFISH!!!!dont ever treat ur child like that....dont just gv birth to them n pass to the maid to look after....dont just care bout ur self n wan outings everyday....ur child needs ur attention n need to b take care of....its because of ur selfishness cause the death....a child is weak...especially if u didnt take care of them properly.....dont always take them out at nite n let them b cold...when they are sick immediately take them to c doctor....if she has asthma take better care of her....dont just leave her to the maid...NEVER!!!!now she has passed away..its becoz of ur carelessness!!!!!because u care too much bout ur self but not ur child!!!!dont ever treat them like that....every1 life is precious.....dont ever b so selfish!!!!
R.I.P....
god plz let janice get better....i hope her parents get their lessons....plz dont let janice go too.....it will b too much in a short time....
# note to myself...dont ever treat my kids like that!!!!

03/04/2010 R.I.P

omg...i just got back from kl...n got a unexpected news...my neice reness(i'm so sorry i dont know how 2 spell ur name correctly...i'm so sorry.....) just pass away from a lung inffaction.....i'm so soory but ssems like i hv a lot speeling error....i dont have mood to type...but i still wan to write this out as a memory to her....eventhough i'm not very close wit her,shes the cutest niece i have ever have...n a very gud girl somemore....shes only 4 years old(just over her birthday).........i will miss you eventhough i very little see u.....u r the cutest niece i have ever had......i love you.....hope you will rest in peace....R.I.P..
(here is some pics of her as the memory for her....) i will always love you.....

=D

sooner or later i duno wat 2 put as the title liao....
hehehehehe....
the smiley almost use all liao...
hahaha
hmmm...
sound like i'm i good mood........
heheheh =D
kinda forget wat bout suju...
well its all over...
now v only can keep support them....
then i'm happy coz of 'him'????
well he sit right infront of me today....made my heart pump so fast....(over reacted)
but still...he is very cute n lengzhai ar....omg!!!!! 
should i stalk his pic n put here???hmm...no one else can c here right....hehehehe
hmm...wait ar...find 1st...hehe...find his camwhore pics..hehehe..damn many le...but not as lengzhai as in class...hehehehe...
those are the pics...hehehe...wan upload 4...but damn slow la.....aiyoyo... hmm wat u all think le???not reli lengzhai in the pics????hehehehehe...dun care la...upload liao...ciao!!!

emo

hmm...has been emo since this morning...
haiz...stupid colllege...cancel my account for wat...
i only transfer ma not not reli check out....aiks...>.<
then read bout suju news...damn sad le...so kesian them ar.....T.T
oppa Hwaiting!!!!suju Hwaiting!!!!!
omg....miss them very much liao....
class hvnt start yet...still got 40 min b4 class...so decided to blog...yest nvr blog at all
hmm got but 1 post ny la....hahahahaha
1 post seem not enough for me...
my new roommate is extremely nice...
get 2 chat wit her...
n she even borrow me dvd SHES THE MAN....
hahaha...
its a nice show......
=)
but i oso miss my ex roommate lo.....
haiz....shes reli nice too...
sharing all the info wit me....
hahahahah.....
well start to hate my fren melisa dy...
miss user...
omg she have her own things but keep wan to use ppl things....
not i wan 2 b stingy....
but still u hv ur own stuff then use urs la....
y keep wan use ppl 1..........
urs precious then ppls 1 not precious meh.....
only keep noe how 2 use ppl 1 n keep ask ppl bring things...share ur head la...
u trying to say save ur money up then got la...
make its sound so nice share but u nvr come up wit any cent....
just say u wan free de la....
miss stingy.....
omg luckily i'm in different room wit her le...
if not reli kek sei n my things use up by her only....hahahahaha
k la...
gtg....
wan pack things go to class lo....
SUJU HWAITING!!!!!ELF HWAITING!!!!!

=(

its early in the morning...my mood isnt that gud at all....
in fact i feel like crying......
T.T
i duno wat to say....i think i only can post it up here...n remind me to b a gud elf n keep support them no matter wat happen...
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=406709634065&id=147316540634&ref=nf
SUJU HWAITING!!!!! ELF HWAITING!!!!!

=)

another smiley face....
hehehe...
coz i'm happy...
finally i move to a aircond room...
hehehe....
happy happy happy....
at least its not so hot...
the apartment is like free sauna when i sleep(but last nite its damn cool duno y le...i was freezing wor...hahaha)
got a new roommate here....
shes nice =)
a indonesian chinese name devina(nice name =) )
shes s very nice n frenly girl....
hahahaha
so nice to meet u.....
internet here oso kinda lauya...but still ok la...
train my patient...hahahha (coz i'm very impatient...)heheheh
hmm this should b very long post..no classes 2day... means no 'him'hahahaha
should i stalk his fb???but he isnt that active....hahahaha
suan la...forget bout him n find other guy...(wow i'm crazy)hahahah
ohya 2day is april fool.....hahahaha
luckily i'm not fooled 2day.....hehehehe......
i dun wan b a victim of april fool....
hahhah...
this made me remember i was fool by mr.teoh wy jun 2 or 3 years ago...
shit how can didnt realise its april fool....argh!!!!still angry at him coz of that....hahah..
teoh wy jun!!!kek sei me....
hahahaha....bye =)