30/12/2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR VINCENT ONG TECK XIAN!!!!
hahahah
seriously love my this nephew a lot =))
he was suppose to go back to terengganu on tuesday but he refuse...hehe
and stay for a few more days. =)
its his birthday today...heheheh
love him more!!!
year end baby =))
hehehe
bought some pressie for him and his brother...
well buy for one have to buy for the other coz his bro is very kuai too~~~
love them both!!! MR BRIAN ONG CHIN XIAN  AND VINCENT ONG TECK XIAN!!!
I LOVE YOU <333
hehe
bought 2 cars for them..bmw 5 series and mercedes...
surely not real cars la..hehehe

nice nice???

hehehehe

surely not getting real car for them XD

today went out shopping wit suyi again 

hehehehe

shop till broke again and again...hehehe

bought eyeliner and some monkeys =)

correction....should be 2 monkey and 1 cow...hehehe

i will call this monhyuk =) 

hahahaha

monkey+ hyuk

kakaka

cute cute?? doesnt he look like hyukie ...hehehe

this is the badge!!! still thinking wer should i put it XD

was hesistating whether or not buy 2...heheheh

but not enough money...

hehehe

and this is cow!!

hahaha

minnie~~

i gona name this minnie~~~heheheh

coz sungmin's animal durin ss2 is cow...hehe

cute cute <3

love all these~~~hehehe

lastly i wan tweet bout is my nephew drawing XD

hehehe

lets see

this is my nephew pov of a person..hehehe

handsome???

wit 6 pax k~~~

hahahahaha

and his future car!!!

hehehehehe

another person..kakaka

k thats all for today =)

<3 

its goin to be a new year...19 years old then...

getting old

lol

bye <3

1 short post

i guess i kinda anti sosial....
well not really anti...
but seriously i dont really know wat to chat wit ppl...
unless close one...
i duno how to start a topic wit people...
i dont know how to talk much....
i duno wat 2 talk...
and each time hangout i scare i'm left out....
coz i duno wat much to say...
help me please someone~~
i wish i have as many frens as you all have =(
teach me how to sosial please~~~

SORRY

well i noe i'm emotional...
and i was really wrong that day....
i guess i was really too emotional that day....
its really a bad day...
i was hoping so hard for my mum to at least forget about the stupid big mouth and i get a yes for ss3 singapore...
but all i get was i am a spoil child
a useless one...
shouldnt be studying at sunway
mum msg ask me stop study and get out of the house
say i dont appreciate wat i have
saying that i should be thrown to the rubbish...
shouldnt born me at all...
i dissapointed my parents...
thats why i got all emotional...
everything is not goin my way....
my roomate come back and was surprise to see my condition....
mayb i scare her....
i'm sorry to misjudge you...
i got jealous easily...
wat can i do...
all i can do is change my stupid attitude...
everyone has their own choice and luck...
just so not lucky i'm the unlucky one....
so i should not feel anything and wat-so-ever.....
so sorry toong.....

now all i can do is pray hard for ss3 in malaysia....
hyukie u mention thank you to malaysia fans...
so dont forget to get ur ass here!!!!

and i should stop fangirlism ( if there such word )
lol.....
get a proper life wit proper things...
lol...
xiatoong....your love would surely come one day....
i feel happy to see your post...
not happe coz u are not together...
but happy that you realise you really love him...
i guess thats wat true love is...
and i hope u guys will really be together.....
wish you luck xiatoong!!!
you and him are meant to be together!!!
dont give up!!

lol at me for talking like an expert...
such a loser i am...
well when i will experience it???
i guess never...
well i should accept my life is like that =x
another emo post...
so sorry =(
to finish up this post lets super junior!!!
lol

10 super hot guys!!!!

hahahaha

ok...

i think i should minimize my fangirlism.....

coz i have no life lol

17/12/2010

too many things to blog...
too many things to say...
at the same time i have too many assignments to do =x
but i choose to write this down...

firstly towards olv latest post

PLUS

sorry to korean big fans.

not specific to anyone.

just sometimes, what so special about korean guys?

i can't get it.

talking about them every single day. hours. minutes. seconds.

don't get bored of it.

i guess i did the wrong move just now....

when she say her cousin like shinee i thought wow...

korean wave is so good till it spread to australia...

wrong move to spazz her about korean just now..

and my personal view 

wth!! she hate koreans that much but she will going to korea??

wow thats lucky...

lol.....

and her earlier post...

well its not like ppl change or wat..

haiz...

sometime ppl boast too much doesnt that irritating....

saying getting this and that going here and there but in actual fact non of it are real...

fake???

hmm i dont wan say...

but sorry i dont really like ppl saying things that they cant do...

well

this lead to my parents and why i hate them so much =(

like everyone say 'saying it is easy but doin it is difficult'

well

thats very true...

but in 1st place please dont say it....

saying something that will never happen is just so heartbreaking...

wishing for it to happen but it will never happen...

its just so so heartbreaking.....

and seriously i'm tired of it...

very very tired of it....

everyone say i'm luck=ky to be the only child..

able to get everything...

but no...

no one know my parents...

no one know how strict are them...

its not like wat ever i wan i will be able to get...

i'm not as lucky as others...

my parents hardly let my wish cometrue..

they never do anything that i really like...

i prefer to have none wishlist...

i noe non of it will come true...

it never happen...

and for me to wish it to happen can be like waiting for the sky to fall...

thats the only time i get to convince my mum to let me go...

she let...

and at last my dad let...

why u have to screw it...

why??

why???

its because of watever u say everything is screw =(

everything....

my only wish...

to see suju on my bdae!!!

that will like never happen again...

why why why u just got to screw it =(

just for once i think my birthday will be prefect!!

for once i dont need to celebrate my birthday alone...

for once i wan to enjoy my birthday...

and u just screw it....

now i duno how to spend my miserable birthday....

this year went out wit kartia and sharon...

gt a birthday gift but full wit glue that make my car sticky...

and ended up i get saman as well...

well yeah

my 1st ever saman on birthday!! 

it just screw!!!!

i duno how to go through my next birthday...

every year my birthday just screw...

and i think that the same next year =(

u are happy with sisters that love you so much....

they visit u often enough....

when ever u have problems u have ur sis to be at ur side....

3 of u are happy together...

auntie even say ur mum are lucky coz 3 of u never fight but support each other alot...

but why u all wan make my life miserable...

i'm all alone and i dont have anything...

why why??

you try to be nice with me and ask me share things wit you..

and i shared...

and wat happen next??

everything is spllit up...

everyone know about it and laugh....

is it that nice to split out ppl's secret...

why must u pretend to be nice to me and next minute telling everyone about it...

why why...

and why out of so many question asking did i angry wit my mum for having me as a only child...

dont u know that question very sensitive???

u ask me in april...

i can remember till now....

coz i duno wat 2 answer....

mayb u dont know some part of my mum story...

its not like my mum choice to have me as only child...

if can surely wan have more than me alone....

my mum isnt like ur mum can have 4 of u all...happy family....

my mum try to hard to get me...

after so many years of trying...

my mum pregnant me when shes 39 years old...

i noe thats old...

shes already 57 this year and i'm 18 only...

my dad already 60...

my dad keep asking me wat will i do when they pass away...

i duno at all...

duno anything at all....

i guess i will be lost??

ur parents are younger than me...

you are much older than me...

you are married...

have a happy life....

and 2 younger sister and 1 younger bro that u support and they support u alot...

so stop making me miserable...

another emo post here =(

as usual ya i'm emo...

so just accept it k....

not everyone can be as happy as all of u...

=x

3/12/2010

seriously why is there such people..
its like wth!!!
so wat if i go
so wat if i willing to pay that much
its my money la!!!
and i not even asking my parents for it!!
i willing to pay wit the money i save for all these years
screw u!!
its my life and who are u to control me
seriously this just make me hate fb more and more...
i hvnt been asking much...
and i been saving alot of it...
and now i cant go at all??
screw u guys!!!
i already on a budget...
i noe studying in sunway is damn expensive....
i only use around rm400 per month....
i skip meals when i dont have enough money...
i noe money is hard to get and i save a lot already...
each time i go out i restrain myself from buying things...
when i crave for bubble tea i didnt buy it coz it can cost me 1 meal...
i been saving a lot and i only hope to see suju on my bdae and yet i cant now...
seriously....
rm 400~500 per month is the best i do....
my cousin the stupid rich brat in tarc...
have rm1000 per month to spend...
bloody hell~~~~
seriously someone just send me as far as possible from here...
i dont mind at all...since my life is screw why dont u just ruin it as well...
shit u~~
everyone says i'm lucky to be the only child....
who the heck created that thinking...
being only child  isnt that good as u think...
all the responsibility is on me...
everything depends on me~
wat ever i wan surely gt ppl sampat and stop me from getting it...
seriously is this life that nice~~
just fuck off my life la....
there goes my dream for my bdae...
i guess i got nothing else now~~

@AllRiseSilver u better effing get ur butt here in msia or i so goin to kill u!!! ="(

30/01/2011

thats the day...
super junior decided to have an extra concert there...
30/01/2011
thats is my birthday too~~ =(
awww
i seriously i wan to go..
i already miss ss2 msia and yet ss3 msia might be cancel...
this is my very last chance to see them
only god know when is the next time they will be back super junior 13+2
it will take years...
i wan to go so much...
its my birthday....
this is my only wish.....
but then to go there are so many problems..
problems that are hard to solve...
firstly wer can i get the ticket....
wer i can find ppl wit ocbc card to help me to buy ="(
or anyone wit samsung hp under singtel....
wer can i find such person...
for sure my cousins dont have...
haiz...
then...
if i reeally can get the tickets....
who i wan to go with???
who i wan share the hotel room wit....
i have no idea at all.....
hotel rooms are easily available...
i can get my mum book for me anytime...
but who to share wit???
alone...
i dont think my mum would let then....
transport to go is a no prob coz i dont mind sitting bus alone...
i been doing that a few times....
if i go and stay wit my cousin....
she may say i can stay there
but wat if suddenly her house owner dont let like wat happen to ah wai and ah khoon???
then how....
in the middle of day or night i alone have to go out and find place to stay....
all the problems that i have to think of...
i dont mind goin alone but surely my parents dont let...
even if i stay in my another cousin house in jb...
how i wan to go singapore???
ask them send me there???
who am i...
why they would help me ="(
if i get ticket i still have plenty of problems....
i may get permission from my parents...
but there are still so many things that i have to think of...
ask my dad send me down and stay wit me???
that surely cant..
my dad is already 60 and his eyes got some problems....
so i never wan him to fetch me anywer....
and my dad keep asking me if he die wat would i do...
seriously that question scare me more and more...
i noe my dad have health problems...
and i cant do anything...
all i do everyday is just worrying....
why i dont have any siblings....
but i cant blame my parents at all ="(
how how....
this just make my chance to go lesser~~~
but deep in my heart i wan to go ="(
i dont know wat will happen...
i dont know anything....
all i'm doin now is siiting here typing this and cry....
this is just way too frustrating...
if i cant go~~~
i guess i goin to celebrate my birthday miserably again...
that wat just happen every year~~
just cant help it~~
and next year knowing that ss3 is on~~
just make my day even worse =(
and i so hate it~~
LEEHYUKJAE u make me frustrated!!
and i cant do anything to make it better =(
how can i continue support them~~~
i dont know wat else to say~~~
i guess another sad post if not goin...
hate my life =x