26/02/2011

today i have a new roommate....
its kinda surprise coz mostly move in last week but she just move in today....hehehe
she's from johor....
she seems very nice and friendly...
really hope can live long wit her...heheheh

haiz.....
got a bad bad day yesterday...
well sort of half bad half ok la....
why why why???
why everything seems like its my fault....
watever i do is wrong???
just asking for some fairness and helping people and it becomes so wrong
its more like watever i do it just wrong
why la....
as u see my earlier earlier post she irritates me alot becoz she is so damn very ji jiao...
she is the calculative person
everything also wan to share and when its time to spilt it, she takes everything
seriously she acts like she so damn pity
and when we fight she involve so many people in it...
it just between us...
why must she call june to talk wit her....
wth it gota do wit june....
if en en ok la....
en en sort of involve
but then f la she....
when she wan a thing she just take it...
sorry k...
since earlier u calculate wit me everything so i will just calculate wit u ok!! fuck....
and the money is so suppose to be en en but she wan it...
fuck la....
next time remind myself not to help others eventhough its close...
no matter how close am i wit en en and i'm trying to help her, end up everything is my fault!!
yayaya
its all so my fault!!!!
i got so fed up wit it....
why la everything is my fault la....
am i that easy to be bullied???
fuck fuck fuck.....just reminder no one is worth i help....unless those i really close....
i should have remembered en en is a 2 face person...
fuck myself for being so stupid...
i guess i agree wit my roommate...
no matter wat, roommate is still the most important especially when we both are alone....
classmates always changes and sometimes, people just take advantage...
omfg...
why the heck my life so teruk!!!!
i guess i cant wait for the week to pass by and start new course then...i hope i really can find people that i can rely on.....
i really hope things change....
bye blog...
i wish i got the best roommate and wont be left out anymore =x

24/02/2011

just a normal day with one class only....
registered for my degree course =x

i woke up this morning to a very fluffy feeling....
somehow i feel warmth and for the 1st time i dont feel empty at all
and my heart doesnt feel cold...
i feel warmth and i love that feeling....
i wonder when i gona feel that again...
i wan that warmth and comfortable feeling...=x

that was this morning...
aftersome time.
the coldness feels me up again....
all i can feel now is emptyness and cold hearted......
i wana change and i hope things change.....
just wan everything to be different....
i just wish i can go to a new place and start new =/
why why why.......
all i always feel is emptyness and coldness
i wan some warmth....
i wan some sunshine to shine my life....
i wan something new........
when will i feel like that...=x

somehow this either can be related or not related...
i pity desmond...
he seem so left out and was all  alone always
he doesnt really have a fren or gang here..
he is always alone...
sometime just eat with us but en en would always shoo him away
i always see he eats alone...
i dont mind he joining us but somehow the rest dont really like =x
i hope i wont be like that...
i dont like the loneliness feeling...
i dont like to be alone =(
i feel so lost..
someone please help me *3*

19/02/2011 aka crazy day!!

omg omg...seriously this is like the 'worse ' day for me???
hahahaha
damn damn damn crazy weh~~~
1st time...hehehe
yesterday went to miss sulyn house to sort of sleepover...hahaha....
omg omg...
i love her home weh!!!
its small but brings a comfortable home feeling....
i really like it!!! hehehehe
and the collection of poster in miss sulyn room!!! omg!!!Hahahaha
watch 2 days and 1 night...
omg omg....
wit hadong, seunggi, jiwon, seugon, and 1 more i cant remember his name...
damn epic man!!!
make me laugh non stop...hehehehe
then jasmine and samantha come....
we watch you're beautiful....hahahahah
watch till 3.30am...
no sleep at all...
i keep wondering myself how i can tahan ar...
geng wor...
i break my own record not sleeping for 24 hours...
kakaka
then get ready to go sungai wang...
4 of us girls only...crazy man!!!hehehe
went to farenheit to park..then walk to sungai wang...at 4.30 am..hahahaha
then reach sungai wang, notice that the door not lock so we climb up to 6th floor...
yep climb!!! hahahaha
really siao!!! then sit infront of the entrance...kakaka

yep...we are the 1st four...thats wat we thought la..duno that theres so many secret entrance around sungai wang.....

then we sit there chit chat...starting the crowd build up...geng weh...but around us is still empty..

we are like glaring at anyone coming near our space XD

hehhehe

we were chit chating while miss sulyn mark our research report...kakaka..she sit side there and do the marking...heheheh

then we plan how to go in, how to run there.....and in between, theres security in the sungai wang behind our entrance door then we keep quiet coz its like very gan jiong...hahah

i so scare kena halau or call parents...

my dad duno i sneek out to miss sulyn house and at sungai wang around 4am...kakaka

the stupid que start at 7am...miss sulyn and samantha went down to find toilet and found another entrance..then they wait there...hahahaha

so basically they are much earlier than us...when the lift door open , a sungai wang worker is there....

we ask him to open the door but he say will open at 8am..but until 8.30 am no one open the door...damn shitty..everyone is frustrated and bu suang...more and more people come up...haiz...like in a tuna tin =(

then they open a small side door...we are like squeezing to go in...i push jasmine in and get myself in XD

heheheh

and we run to the que....but wtf....

we are like so far away...the que is like so super long...

luckily miss sulyn and samantha  is in through another entrance...and sam is a skc member...so she bought ticket for us there...the good tickets la...and i'm behind there have to buy ticket for suyi and zhafira...i'm so frustrated!!! its like the chances to get good ticket so little =( and i feel so sorry to dissapoint them...

so i msg and apologize to them =( feel like crying and break down there....

damn stupid que...then we continue que and sam sneek in to sulyn place and help me que...its like so good dy..then i have to go to her place coz they notice she actually already bought 6 tix...so i que there!! its like so much far from the place i was previous in and its like cutiing que but i dont care....

when i ask for ticket, the best seat they have is around L1, L2, L13 and L14...so i decided to get L1 for them and i get 2nd row for them...thank god!!! i dont wan to dissapoint them....heheh

then i went to find jasmine them...kakaka.....

in the end i and miss sulyn satisfied with the tickets we get...hehehe

thanks to samantha for getting us L5 tickets and its 2nd row!! kakakaka

hehhehe

then we go and eat,...

unfortunately sam, jas cant get the seat they wan...

damn truk the rits!! say open 9 counters and in the end is like 3 counters only....and we pay money at 1 counter and take tix another counter..damn teruk...not computerised...teruk...but thank god for the seats la....

and so many places they never take for sale!!! so teruk man!!!!

feel like being cheated by them...

but i love the place i have now so dont complain much...hehehehe

then we go eat old town and the food there teruk k....

damn oily my nasi lemak....

sucks .>.<

then we call up the person sam scold because she cant get the seats they wan...and they say they decided to remove that area!! sucks to the max!!! so i duno wat sam gona do now...wish them all the best.....

when i goin through all these. i never get to eat, i was having slight fever and flu...

i thought i might faint there as i dont have enough water as well...

luckily for me, i survive and can run....my legs are quite numb for standing so long...haiz....but it is all worth it....

ss3!!! kakaka...

here is my ticket and the pic of the que there....hehehe

the que at the orange entrance...i'm one of it...kakaka

the que to puchase ticket...this is wer we get the ticket...

the poster there...hehheh

our tickets!!! mine, miss sulyn, suyi, zhafira, and zurina <#

its starts at 6 pm and can go in at 4pm!! yay!! much earlier...kakaka

and the stupid seating plan

hehehehe

thats all my crazy experience...kakaka

bye =) 

LEE HYUKJAE!! saranghae!!! make my rm486 worth it ya <3

13/02/2011

its a day b4 valentine....
as usual single like me emo........
lol
wat can i do...
everyone has a partner....
even today is a emo day for me =(
feel like crying out whole day but didnt burst...
gona burst now...
if i dont i duno how desperate i can be =(

firstly i know the reality i dont have any bf..
i dont need you to shoot it right straight in front of my face..
i know my own condition..
wat i type that day was a plain joke between me and suyi...
u dont know u dont say anything...
and for the hundred time!!!
i'm not dump k!!!
how i can be dump wer i didnt start anything at all!!
so stop shooting it at me!!!
i know myself!!
u think u very great...
u are the one being dump!!
no matter how many time u confess she still reject u...
so u should keep ur mouth shut!!

oh yeah...
its valentine 2moro...
sorrow day for the single...
i hvnt celebrate valentine ones at all...
depressing huh
wat can i do then...
i just envy those who are couple....
or those not available...
olv found her partner last year and i only knew bout it this cny =(
wat can i do...
horrible fren i am..
no one ever admit i'm their fren....
suyi is single but not available....
and the rest definately taken =(
its just me all alone....
even my ex roommate....
i still remember 1st time shes here...
she share every story wit me...
bout being single too...
and now she is commited too..
well i guess its just me...
everything is just wrong for me =(
i just wish i'm out of here =(
everything so wrong....
i duno wat 2 do and i'm very lost =(
besides, wats the point of having this blog.
it just i alone write and read it later...
no one else read it...
its just a useless blog...
like the owner..

sometimes i just wonder wat if i just die like that...
i wish i die after the ss3 msia...
then my dream come true...
i wonder wat is happening to me...
nosebleed, headache, not feeling well..
wat else...
hair fall =(
sign of cancer??sign of leukemia??
well
i dont wan to have any body check up...
just let me die peacefully..
but are all these sign of the sickness???
well no one could answer me...
wats the use of posting here =(
bye...
happy single valentine =(

#ps....am i way annoying??its just seems that no one like me and i'm disturbing for everyone...
wats the point writing here...
no one ever reply...ciao blog =)

11/02/2011 OR 27/01/2011

this post suppose to be posted on 27/01 but u know me...

laziness hit me and i didnt post any...sorry =)

this post i wrote in the bus =) 

"In the bus on the way back to ktn….

Hmm

Never done this b4 but suddenly wan to on my lappie to play…hahah

Now waiting yeng geng…

Haha

Scary but ok la watching in the bus…

Was suppose to this post last night but then have to pack my things and was busy…

Went for diner wit en en…hehehe

Tried toilet bowl….hahaha

Not bad..

Nothing really special actually la…haha

Its more like a early birthday celebration for me…

She invited me for dinner…

Thank so much to her…

I actually feel appreciated this time…

Hehehe

I thought dinner was that’s all..

She alone dinner wit me so she pay for me…

I so paiseh let her pay for it…

Then we went back hostel coz its quite late dy…

While packing suddenly she came over and gave me some pressie..

Aww

I was so touch <3

A new smiley bean bag and a necklace =)))

Kamsahamida….hahahah

Thank her so much..hehehe

Omg I really feel paiseh lo coz she spend so much for me…

She know I will be lonely but yet she treat me for dinner and give me pressie….

She really gave me a lot and a surprise….

It’s a butterfly necklace…

And it’s very beautiful…kekeke

Just cant wait to go back …hehehe

I posted at fb a thank you msg to her….

My aunt thought that its my birthday and wish me there…hahahah

Unbelieveable…

2 more hours and I’m reaching ktn…..hehehe

Cant wait cant wait….

Hahahah

But then I’m worry about my research report…

Haiz…

I just did around 4 pages….

Means theres 21 pages to go!!! Omg!!!

Wat 2 write!!!!

And have to finish after cny…

I’m so dead so dead…..

Shit shit shit….

Cursing now..

Kakaka

Gtg then  =)

Love ya…

And love en en the most <3 "

hmmm...

my birthday over quite long...as usual nothing special at all...lol

wat am i expecting??

no bf nothing...

wat can i do....

just a small hangout wit olv and then dinner at sushi king wit my parents...

lou sang....

i love sushi king yeesang...

no coloring and much preservative but wit many salmon and scallop....

yum yum <3

heheheh

then the last few days...

busy finishing my 21 pages research report...

i finish it in like 3 days where as others take like 2 months since tchr gave  us like last december...

wat can i expect...

lousy me..

and and and~~~ 

tang tang tang tang ( imagine the sound urself) kakaka

SUPER JUNIOR IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!
LEEHYUKJAE IS COMING!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG...

hahahha

ss3 ss3 ss3 ss3 ss3~~~

next sat is the selling ticket day...

i hope i can grab the most front seats!!! yay!!!!

hehehe

cant wait for it =) hehehee

tata for now =) hehehehe

LEEHYUKJAE CAREFUL OR I GONA RAPE U!!!