1/12/2011

hmm...a nice date???
its been a while since i last blog...wanted to but never find the time for it...useless much...
haiz....its the 1st already...and my exam starts on the 6 and continuous....seriously i need to get everything into my brain....and yet...see wat am i doing...
blogging now...i should be sleeping...useless me...haiz....
fed up of going to uni...
fed up of going anywhere...
people think uni life is easy, freedom and easy to pass...err sorry..theres no such thing lo....
its my 2nd sem...well end of my 2nd sem...
hardship...
so many things happen and things just become complicated =(
haiz....
with friends, money, studies...everything...nothing is easy but then it just makes my life miserable...haiz...
really miserable blogging in the middle of the night while final is in a few days and i dont know my brain contains wat....
english sucks??thats me...i never get to improve my english..its just either i'm too lazy or should say i'm too stupid...
haiz...
well main purpose of blogging??hmm i read through my fren's blog...haiz...
yaya..we love to say about ppl..but do u ever think bout u...
keep saying dont wan to be like that person..dont wan be showoff etc...but end up isnt that wat u are doing...
saying bout branded goods...people dont need branded goods to survive...
your dad tries to stop you from being such a show off but well....thats wat happening....stopping you from becoming those while without realise you slowly becoming like that...
hmm....my dad too...stopping me from this and that but i'm being rebellan ( or how u ever spell this word ...)
haiz,,note to myself when i become a mum: dont control your children too much....it will tend to become worse...
haiz....
your dad can afford but mayb he sees the point that no use sending you there which you may become worse...make yourself work hard for it...
not everyone gets into college after spm are rich k...
like wat my mum says, she been saving a lot for me so that i can get the best studies...she know i can do it but my laziness are just too horrible....sending me to sunway doesnt mean i'm rich,..its just my parent save enough for me to get the best education...and i should appreciate it....
gosh i should study harder stupid me...haiz,...
its just...i think i'm too into kpop..but somehow that just become my life....co i dont have much friends...i dont really socialize a lot...i dont really know wat to talk...wat to share with others...i'm just more to quiet...until i meet those that i can talk crap with...hehehe
but knowing super junior and being in this fandom is something good that happen to me....
i get to know more and can say lots of friend online...which i dont need to care whether they care bout my looks or not...
i think the main reason i cant socialize much its coz of my appearance...i look horrible...fat, big face, big nose, pimples and scars around and dark =(
haiz,,,my self confidence = 0....
well back to my point...i'm writng this here as a reminder my self....
dont ever ger influence by money or branded goods...
wats the use of getting branded goods when you can have something as good as that cheaper...
i just got my vincci + bag,...it suppose to cost around rm150..but i get it for around rm 25??
so wat if i get a branded bag...any thing can do as long as it can be used....no use chasing for the branded stuff....money cant buy you happiness but sincerity, giving out everything from your heart is the best...i learn this from sj....theres no use competiting...as long as there are people there to support you, that the most important thing...money cant buy friends....friends are much more important than money....
gosh..hope i wont be carry off by those things....i surely dont wan at all...
i just wan to live a normal live...
dad,...you give ma a difficult course to take...haiz..no matter wat i know i cant dissapoint you like wat he did...
you paid for me everything here and i surely cant make u dissapointed though i'm useless....
all i should do is to make you proud...you planned for my future and i'm totally accepting it coz i know its for my best since i'm such a lazy pig...thank u so much mom and dad for all these....and please make sure i dont go to the wrong path ever.....
most importantly...i glad i have friends that will always be by my side....
to my cousin who look down on me or dont care me anymore...wat can i do...i will always be sad seeing you treat me like that but i cant change it...i will have to accept it no matter wat...once u had said that anything i can find you all since you all are my sis...then wat am i to you all now?nothing?you dont even say hi to me when we meet...haiz...life is that miserable for me...thats why i move myself into kpop...to make me forget things....to make me drunk in it....
thats all for now....hmm when will i blog again...no matter wat, that will be after my finals =D
thank you god for giving me such good parents and friends =D
i love you <3

23/6/2011

major breakdown =(
not in anything but its my own....
my ownself....
i dont know wat to do at all liao...
i feel like i'm so useless...
nothing can be done perfectly on time and nothing is done nicely...
everything last minute and all the crappy stuff =(
really really feel like dying...
team up with joanne and ch...
cant say its the best idea or the worse idea..have the pros and cons that i cant say anything on...
joanne is good but her things are way too last minute..its like last minute punya last minute...
ch things all is perfect
and i agree
I"m very redundan...
i very stupid and useless...
i cant get anything done correctly or at least make it good...
everything i do and say is just wrong...
so so wrong...
when he say i'm redundan..
i realise...yes...that was me...stupid and redundan and most importantly useless...
being in a group with them makes me think that seriously i'm going to cause them become worse...
i will just hoi sei them only....
no wonder no one wan to be in a group with me at all...
even ch didnt say much about me..
i guess next sem i'm not seeing him liao since i so cha...
no one will wan me...
me so redundan how can i be here...
my parents put too much high hope on me...
wat i scare most is seeing dissapointment on their faces...
i dont wan the same thing happen during spm result...
my parents agree to send me to sunway..
thinking i will be good here..and when the result is out, all they get is just dissapointment...major dissapointment =(
i really dont wan that to happen..i have to keep it and be better..be like ch or other ppl..
study harder...
like wat my mum told me, i can be good but its just i'm lazy....
my laziness is overtaking me...
i gotta change that.
it wont lead me to anywhere only cause me negative effect...
when my cousin sms last night...
telling me how good my nephew is doing...
brian get no 3 while vincent get no7...
its a good achievement for them.expecially brian..he really improve a lot....so good....
last time he might not be so good, and now he is improving more and more...
it seems that i manja them is not wrong..it can make them be better...
i glad they score well...
i hope i can be like them again..score well and make my parents proud...
i never score that well b4...
since standard 4 after i get no 1 in class, i really turn to the worse....
i dont know wat got into me but all i know it become me now...
the worse side of...
the side that is not good at all..
if my nephew can do it why can i....
surely i can change...and i should change for the better...
i should have higher will now and be much better...
pray for me and hope that i can get 65% for each subject to maintain my scholarship and so that my parents will continue let me study here...
*pray hard*
thank u =)

2/6/2011

woots~~~
been a long time since blogging...kinda miss it...
well when i busy i will blog coz i'm too lazy...
urgh terrible terrible attitude...lol~~~
my degree life already started...actually started almost for 3 months already....
and next month having my final...
i'm a very dissapointing person i think
haiz =(
but somehow my life in degree was fun coz i meet you~~~
kakaka
got someone for me to argue with everyday...
its fun though XD
i guess even en en didnt see this side of me....kakaka
coz in FIA i didnt get to know you yet...
well my 1st impression of you is you are a bad guy...
나쁜할아버지!!! ㅎㅎㅎ
cant stop calling you 할아버지ㅋㅋㅋ
well get to know you then i sort of become more busy....
you are really a casanova....
i keep reminding myself not to fall for you coz u are not worth it...
you are really not worth it i think~~
you are a casanova...
you are very close with all the girls well....
wat can i say....hahaha
but give me back my personal space...
when you are too stress coz of exam especially after exam, dont need to come so near to me until right infront of my face...
i will have heart attack k....
but being close with you is fun...
it fun to have some arguement in life XD
but only stupid arguement sort of like those with you...kakaka
very fun to sarcasticly reply you....kakaka XD
you give me a different view of guys i think but guys attitude would never change...kakaka.....
1 reminder to myself : never to simply touch a guys laptop coz it contain things that you dont wan to see no matter how gentleman they are...kakaka XD
well talking with you really five a different impression of wat u look like....kakaka
you look really a bad bad guy but is a gentleman inside....
seriously i didnt talk about my korean onni at all and everything is about you..lol....really really no use...kakaka
you always make me laugh no matter wat....sort of see your face then i laugh!!! kakakak
especially today...
i spent my time till 12am outside the hostel a few times also because of you...
but i guess its lucky for me to meet guys like you all...
dont care wat a girl look and still can be friends and nice to them...
well getting know you all really change my impression to most of the guys....
well tan chun han, evan, edwin, chun xing, sean you guys are really my good friend...hahaha
well the one i mention most above is chun han...my stupid bro....who wan things from me then only say he is my bro XD why la my surname same with you...hahaha...but u really make me laugh a lot XD
thanks a lot!!!! hehehehe even on msn and skype i also can argue with you...hahaha...
well you are one of the guys i talk about in my blog aside from my hyukie and minnie XD
hahahaha
well i hope the melaka trip will be on as it would be nice to travel with your friends and gang...hahaha
terrible person trying to leave me =p
*or am i too annoying thats why u wan to kick me off your car??? =(
나쁜사람!!!
i think i should not annoy u too much *hmmp* >.<
just wondering why u dont have girl friend de ah???
shouldnt u be committed or mayb u love flirting too much???Hahahaha
tata~~~ thats a long post.....hehehe..byes *waves*

and btw, fyi this pic is not half naked k XD and hyukie is so damn hot!!!!

19/03/2011!!! the most AWESOME night ever!!!

SUPER SHOW 3 LIVE IN MALAYSIA!!!! DAEBAK!!!! HEHEHEHE
SO SO SO DAMN NICE!!!!! HEHEHEHEL....
STARTING WITH THE WHOLE DAY AT THE STADIUM...
WALKING HERE AND THERE TO GET FREE BANNER =)
HEHEHEHE
GET MANY FREE BANNER~~~ KYU, MIN, EUNHAE...
BUT I CANT GET A GOOD QUALITY OF HYUKIE HAND BANNER =(
HAIZ.....
THEN STRAIGHT TO CONCERT PART!!! HEHEHEHE
WENT IN WITH MISS SULYN...EXCITED~~~ HEHEHEHE
CHANGE HP WITH HER SO THAT CAN CALL MEIYI =)
THEN ONE FM JACK AND HOT FM HAFIZ COME OUT TO ENTERTAIN US...HEHEHEHE
BUT FOR NOT LONG SINCE WE ARE MORE EXCITED TO SEE SJ!!!!
OMG OMG!!!
DONGHAE FLY OUT!!!
ITS LIKE SO AWESOME HE HANGING UP THERE!!! DAMN YENG!!!! OMG ITS LIKE I CHANGE MY BIAS ALREADY!!!
COZ DONGHAE IS JUST TOO SWEET =)
HEHEHEHE
THEN START THE SONG...
SORRY BUT I JUST CANT REMEMBER THE TITLE...I ONLY KNOW IT IS SO DAMN AWESOME!!!! HEHEHEH
THEN TEUKIE AND SUNGMIN ALSO FLY!~!!!! HEHEHEHEH
SO NICE!!!!!!!!! HEHEHE
THEN THEY DID GO AROUND...
MY AREA CHANGE FROM SEATING TO ROCK PIT STYLE AS ALL OF US STANDING UP~~!!!
OMG I CANT BELIEVE THE HYUKIE DONT LOOK AT MY SIDE AT ALL!!!
EACH TIME HE PASS BY MY AREA HE LOOK AT THE ROCK PIT OR EITHER UP THER!!! GAH!!!
I WAS LIKE SHOUTING AND WAVING AT HIM AND YET HE DIDNT NOTICE!!!!
I WAS LIKE WAN TO GIVE HIM THE GIFT!!!
OHGOD!!!
I GONA SKIP ALL THE SONGS PARTS AS I CANT REMEMBER THE SONG SEQUENCE...HEHEHEHE
AND NEXT I GET TO TOUCH KYU'S HAND!!! HE LIKE PASS BY MY AREA AND ALL OF US PUT OUR HAND OUT AND TOUCH HIS!!! ITS LIKE SO SOFT...
OH GOD!!! NICE!!!!!EVIL KYU BUT WIT SWEETNESS =)
HEHEHEHE
AND YET SO MANY HUNDRED TIMES HYUKIE PASS BY ME AND HE DIDNT SEE AT ALL!!! FRUSTRATED!!!
IN THE END I DECIDED TO THROW TO HIS LEG!!! AND YET HE DIDNT SEE!!!
OMG OMG!!!
IT WAS LIKE MY HEART BROKEN AND I'M SO SAD.....
BUT BUT BUT...THEN DONGHAE PASS BY!!!
AND I POINTED TO DONGHAE TOWARDS THE THING!!!
DONGHAE DID LOOK ON THE FLOOR AND SAW IT!!!
HE PICK IT UP AND SMILE!!!
OH MY GOD~!!!
MY HEART LIKE STOP !!!!
WAH..
I STRAIGHT AWAY GAN DONG BY DONGHAE ~~~
HE IS JUST SO SWEET AND I LOVE IT SEEING HE PICK IT UP!!!HEHEHEHE
SO DAMN DAMN SWEET!!!
I WISH I DIDNT WRITE THE LETTER AND THE POLAROID...HEHEHE
THEN DONGHAE CAN USE IT INSTEAD OF HYUKIE =)
HEHEHHE
THATS ALL I GONA WRITE =)
TATA~~~

16/03/2011

another 1 more post...
as i promise....
summary of my 1 year during FIA and i'm ready to face the challenge of degree~~
i went for Fia all alone in 18th march 2010~~
all alone dont know anyone and is a stranger to everything...
there i meet melissa~~
well not everything is like wat we see...
as said dont judge a book by its cover...
friendly, nice.....
well
its takes sometime to know a person in deep~~
anything can happen and things can change in a second....
it take some time to notice she isnt the right friend...
en en is nicer~~~ but she is just slow...
sorry but slow can irritates me coz i do things very fast k~~~
but overall en en is NICE!!! heheheheh
then june~~
straight forward but nice~~ talkative but like to discuss things...hehehe
another 1 nice fren that not continueing in sunway =(
jasmine and sam~~~
klang girl with high kpop interest~~ heheh
fun to hang out with them.....
and the econs gang~~~
wanqi, sueann, wenhui, mona, joanne, sook yee, ai ni, yan teng, shu wen~~~
i love them!!!
though i'm close to them only during 3rd sem but its hell full of fun =)
hehehehe
glad that most of them continue in sunway especially, wanqi, sueann, shu wen, sook yee and joanne~~~hehehe
the lecturers are nice~~~
especially miss sulyn ( going sj concert together and a big kpop fan too thanks to sam )
miss may~~~
teaches us maths and she is so damn nice!!! hehehehe
ms suzana~~~ our econs class totally rocks because of her =)
mr keith~~~ love his class and jokes =)
hehehe
and some other friends that i glad i meet them...hehehehe
like evan, desmond, edwin,.....hmmm
just say FIA isnt that bad most of the time...
i think i will miss this more than highschool~~~hehehehe
bye=)

16/03/2011

was suppose to post about the summaries of my FIA life....
but yet laziness took over me~~~~
this post is about that???
hmm...
i guess i will post about that later...
now i wan let all the stress and crying out....

i wonder when i will have nice memories~~~
when i will have such friends that would be at my side no matter what happen~~~
will i have a chance for that??
saw ime unnie post....
she being emo~~ and cry out....
she feel bad about it for calling and disturbing her best friend everytime she cry....
and another close friend say she love and miss her....
and will be at her side...
they miss the happy memories that they had for each other....so nice and touching...
when will i get that..........
when happy memories will be created for me....
i wan some memories that i could keep forever~~~
not all the sad and dissapointing memories that i had.........
though 2011 just started and they had bad memories...
but yet they had happy memories that could cheer them up anything.........
how about me~~~
still lost~~
still all alone....
i just hate being like this....
why things happen to me like this...
i wish i have friends like unnie >.<
someone that could be at myside forever no matter its happy or sad time...
not to say i'm choosy or watso ever...
i just dont like the feeling of being used =(
not friends that only find me when they wan some things...
when they need help only they will find me...
why why??
not i dont wan to help...........
but the feeling of being used is there~~~
i wan real friends...
that i can chat wit~~~
that i can hang out wit~~~
that i can share everything....
i glad that i know a few~~~
a few that i could trust and i wont forget them forever~~
olivia, xiatoong, suyi, ime unnie, lhen unnie and rio~~~ saranghae dongseang/unnie~~~
glad to know all of you...
i know my list is made up of 6 only...
but i really glad to know you all....
you all are the best!! jjang!!!
i wish i will have better friendship and friends forever from my new gang that i meet in sunway during FIA...
wan qi, en en, mona, sue ann, ai ni, joanne, sook yee and wen hui....
though all of us meet only by 2nd semester ( i know en en and wan qi since 2nd day)
i love you all coz u all bring joy to me =)
i'm so glad to meet you all....
and i know you all are different...
i know i can rely on u guys....
i love you all~~~ i love everyone that i mention here!!!
though not everyone in the FIA continue degree in sunway...i wont forget you all at all!!
saranghae <3

11/03/2011

a video of the tower in japan when the earthquake happen today...

its the 5th largest earthquake ever happen in history...

with scale of 8.9...

its bad bad bad....and because of the earthquake,

tsunami predicted to happen in lots of places....

taiwan one of those...

and i'm worry...

simply worry...

super junior boys are there....

omg....

but luckily taipei is far from the coast...

and luckily my cousin chee khoon havent go there to study...

its been his dream to go taiwan study about bakery...

but he havent go yet...

luckily he isnt there...if not everyone will be very worry....

and

tsunami is alert to hit philipines, indonesia, australia,new zealand and many more....

sabah and sarawak might be affected =(

en en is there....

worrying for everyone...

everyone is simply very very worry...

is 2012 coming soon???

world coming to an end???

no one knows...

only god know....

when i saw this video...

i was actually thinking

wat if this happen in malaysia...

wat if it is the sun-u residence where i'm staying??

i going to die just like that???

no one knows...

staying in a high rise building is dangerous....

staying in a single storey house is also dangerous....

everywhere is dangerous...

just be safe and when the time comes...

no regret~~

peace *.*v

pray for the world disaster to end fast ^^V

26/02/2011

today i have a new roommate....
its kinda surprise coz mostly move in last week but she just move in today....hehehe
she's from johor....
she seems very nice and friendly...
really hope can live long wit her...heheheh

haiz.....
got a bad bad day yesterday...
well sort of half bad half ok la....
why why why???
why everything seems like its my fault....
watever i do is wrong???
just asking for some fairness and helping people and it becomes so wrong
its more like watever i do it just wrong
why la....
as u see my earlier earlier post she irritates me alot becoz she is so damn very ji jiao...
she is the calculative person
everything also wan to share and when its time to spilt it, she takes everything
seriously she acts like she so damn pity
and when we fight she involve so many people in it...
it just between us...
why must she call june to talk wit her....
wth it gota do wit june....
if en en ok la....
en en sort of involve
but then f la she....
when she wan a thing she just take it...
sorry k...
since earlier u calculate wit me everything so i will just calculate wit u ok!! fuck....
and the money is so suppose to be en en but she wan it...
fuck la....
next time remind myself not to help others eventhough its close...
no matter how close am i wit en en and i'm trying to help her, end up everything is my fault!!
yayaya
its all so my fault!!!!
i got so fed up wit it....
why la everything is my fault la....
am i that easy to be bullied???
fuck fuck fuck.....just reminder no one is worth i help....unless those i really close....
i should have remembered en en is a 2 face person...
fuck myself for being so stupid...
i guess i agree wit my roommate...
no matter wat, roommate is still the most important especially when we both are alone....
classmates always changes and sometimes, people just take advantage...
omfg...
why the heck my life so teruk!!!!
i guess i cant wait for the week to pass by and start new course then...i hope i really can find people that i can rely on.....
i really hope things change....
bye blog...
i wish i got the best roommate and wont be left out anymore =x

24/02/2011

just a normal day with one class only....
registered for my degree course =x

i woke up this morning to a very fluffy feeling....
somehow i feel warmth and for the 1st time i dont feel empty at all
and my heart doesnt feel cold...
i feel warmth and i love that feeling....
i wonder when i gona feel that again...
i wan that warmth and comfortable feeling...=x

that was this morning...
aftersome time.
the coldness feels me up again....
all i can feel now is emptyness and cold hearted......
i wana change and i hope things change.....
just wan everything to be different....
i just wish i can go to a new place and start new =/
why why why.......
all i always feel is emptyness and coldness
i wan some warmth....
i wan some sunshine to shine my life....
i wan something new........
when will i feel like that...=x

somehow this either can be related or not related...
i pity desmond...
he seem so left out and was all  alone always
he doesnt really have a fren or gang here..
he is always alone...
sometime just eat with us but en en would always shoo him away
i always see he eats alone...
i dont mind he joining us but somehow the rest dont really like =x
i hope i wont be like that...
i dont like the loneliness feeling...
i dont like to be alone =(
i feel so lost..
someone please help me *3*

19/02/2011 aka crazy day!!

omg omg...seriously this is like the 'worse ' day for me???
hahahaha
damn damn damn crazy weh~~~
1st time...hehehe
yesterday went to miss sulyn house to sort of sleepover...hahaha....
omg omg...
i love her home weh!!!
its small but brings a comfortable home feeling....
i really like it!!! hehehehe
and the collection of poster in miss sulyn room!!! omg!!!Hahahaha
watch 2 days and 1 night...
omg omg....
wit hadong, seunggi, jiwon, seugon, and 1 more i cant remember his name...
damn epic man!!!
make me laugh non stop...hehehehe
then jasmine and samantha come....
we watch you're beautiful....hahahahah
watch till 3.30am...
no sleep at all...
i keep wondering myself how i can tahan ar...
geng wor...
i break my own record not sleeping for 24 hours...
kakaka
then get ready to go sungai wang...
4 of us girls only...crazy man!!!hehehe
went to farenheit to park..then walk to sungai wang...at 4.30 am..hahahaha
then reach sungai wang, notice that the door not lock so we climb up to 6th floor...
yep climb!!! hahahaha
really siao!!! then sit infront of the entrance...kakaka

yep...we are the 1st four...thats wat we thought la..duno that theres so many secret entrance around sungai wang.....

then we sit there chit chat...starting the crowd build up...geng weh...but around us is still empty..

we are like glaring at anyone coming near our space XD

hehhehe

we were chit chating while miss sulyn mark our research report...kakaka..she sit side there and do the marking...heheheh

then we plan how to go in, how to run there.....and in between, theres security in the sungai wang behind our entrance door then we keep quiet coz its like very gan jiong...hahah

i so scare kena halau or call parents...

my dad duno i sneek out to miss sulyn house and at sungai wang around 4am...kakaka

the stupid que start at 7am...miss sulyn and samantha went down to find toilet and found another entrance..then they wait there...hahahaha

so basically they are much earlier than us...when the lift door open , a sungai wang worker is there....

we ask him to open the door but he say will open at 8am..but until 8.30 am no one open the door...damn shitty..everyone is frustrated and bu suang...more and more people come up...haiz...like in a tuna tin =(

then they open a small side door...we are like squeezing to go in...i push jasmine in and get myself in XD

heheheh

and we run to the que....but wtf....

we are like so far away...the que is like so super long...

luckily miss sulyn and samantha  is in through another entrance...and sam is a skc member...so she bought ticket for us there...the good tickets la...and i'm behind there have to buy ticket for suyi and zhafira...i'm so frustrated!!! its like the chances to get good ticket so little =( and i feel so sorry to dissapoint them...

so i msg and apologize to them =( feel like crying and break down there....

damn stupid que...then we continue que and sam sneek in to sulyn place and help me que...its like so good dy..then i have to go to her place coz they notice she actually already bought 6 tix...so i que there!! its like so much far from the place i was previous in and its like cutiing que but i dont care....

when i ask for ticket, the best seat they have is around L1, L2, L13 and L14...so i decided to get L1 for them and i get 2nd row for them...thank god!!! i dont wan to dissapoint them....heheh

then i went to find jasmine them...kakaka.....

in the end i and miss sulyn satisfied with the tickets we get...hehehe

thanks to samantha for getting us L5 tickets and its 2nd row!! kakakaka

hehhehe

then we go and eat,...

unfortunately sam, jas cant get the seat they wan...

damn truk the rits!! say open 9 counters and in the end is like 3 counters only....and we pay money at 1 counter and take tix another counter..damn teruk...not computerised...teruk...but thank god for the seats la....

and so many places they never take for sale!!! so teruk man!!!!

feel like being cheated by them...

but i love the place i have now so dont complain much...hehehehe

then we go eat old town and the food there teruk k....

damn oily my nasi lemak....

sucks .>.<

then we call up the person sam scold because she cant get the seats they wan...and they say they decided to remove that area!! sucks to the max!!! so i duno wat sam gona do now...wish them all the best.....

when i goin through all these. i never get to eat, i was having slight fever and flu...

i thought i might faint there as i dont have enough water as well...

luckily for me, i survive and can run....my legs are quite numb for standing so long...haiz....but it is all worth it....

ss3!!! kakaka...

here is my ticket and the pic of the que there....hehehe

the que at the orange entrance...i'm one of it...kakaka

the que to puchase ticket...this is wer we get the ticket...

the poster there...hehheh

our tickets!!! mine, miss sulyn, suyi, zhafira, and zurina <#

its starts at 6 pm and can go in at 4pm!! yay!! much earlier...kakaka

and the stupid seating plan

hehehehe

thats all my crazy experience...kakaka

bye =) 

LEE HYUKJAE!! saranghae!!! make my rm486 worth it ya <3

13/02/2011

its a day b4 valentine....
as usual single like me emo........
lol
wat can i do...
everyone has a partner....
even today is a emo day for me =(
feel like crying out whole day but didnt burst...
gona burst now...
if i dont i duno how desperate i can be =(

firstly i know the reality i dont have any bf..
i dont need you to shoot it right straight in front of my face..
i know my own condition..
wat i type that day was a plain joke between me and suyi...
u dont know u dont say anything...
and for the hundred time!!!
i'm not dump k!!!
how i can be dump wer i didnt start anything at all!!
so stop shooting it at me!!!
i know myself!!
u think u very great...
u are the one being dump!!
no matter how many time u confess she still reject u...
so u should keep ur mouth shut!!

oh yeah...
its valentine 2moro...
sorrow day for the single...
i hvnt celebrate valentine ones at all...
depressing huh
wat can i do then...
i just envy those who are couple....
or those not available...
olv found her partner last year and i only knew bout it this cny =(
wat can i do...
horrible fren i am..
no one ever admit i'm their fren....
suyi is single but not available....
and the rest definately taken =(
its just me all alone....
even my ex roommate....
i still remember 1st time shes here...
she share every story wit me...
bout being single too...
and now she is commited too..
well i guess its just me...
everything is just wrong for me =(
i just wish i'm out of here =(
everything so wrong....
i duno wat 2 do and i'm very lost =(
besides, wats the point of having this blog.
it just i alone write and read it later...
no one else read it...
its just a useless blog...
like the owner..

sometimes i just wonder wat if i just die like that...
i wish i die after the ss3 msia...
then my dream come true...
i wonder wat is happening to me...
nosebleed, headache, not feeling well..
wat else...
hair fall =(
sign of cancer??sign of leukemia??
well
i dont wan to have any body check up...
just let me die peacefully..
but are all these sign of the sickness???
well no one could answer me...
wats the use of posting here =(
bye...
happy single valentine =(

#ps....am i way annoying??its just seems that no one like me and i'm disturbing for everyone...
wats the point writing here...
no one ever reply...ciao blog =)

11/02/2011 OR 27/01/2011

this post suppose to be posted on 27/01 but u know me...

laziness hit me and i didnt post any...sorry =)

this post i wrote in the bus =) 

"In the bus on the way back to ktn….

Hmm

Never done this b4 but suddenly wan to on my lappie to play…hahah

Now waiting yeng geng…

Haha

Scary but ok la watching in the bus…

Was suppose to this post last night but then have to pack my things and was busy…

Went for diner wit en en…hehehe

Tried toilet bowl….hahaha

Not bad..

Nothing really special actually la…haha

Its more like a early birthday celebration for me…

She invited me for dinner…

Thank so much to her…

I actually feel appreciated this time…

Hehehe

I thought dinner was that’s all..

She alone dinner wit me so she pay for me…

I so paiseh let her pay for it…

Then we went back hostel coz its quite late dy…

While packing suddenly she came over and gave me some pressie..

Aww

I was so touch <3

A new smiley bean bag and a necklace =)))

Kamsahamida….hahahah

Thank her so much..hehehe

Omg I really feel paiseh lo coz she spend so much for me…

She know I will be lonely but yet she treat me for dinner and give me pressie….

She really gave me a lot and a surprise….

It’s a butterfly necklace…

And it’s very beautiful…kekeke

Just cant wait to go back …hehehe

I posted at fb a thank you msg to her….

My aunt thought that its my birthday and wish me there…hahahah

Unbelieveable…

2 more hours and I’m reaching ktn…..hehehe

Cant wait cant wait….

Hahahah

But then I’m worry about my research report…

Haiz…

I just did around 4 pages….

Means theres 21 pages to go!!! Omg!!!

Wat 2 write!!!!

And have to finish after cny…

I’m so dead so dead…..

Shit shit shit….

Cursing now..

Kakaka

Gtg then  =)

Love ya…

And love en en the most <3 "

hmmm...

my birthday over quite long...as usual nothing special at all...lol

wat am i expecting??

no bf nothing...

wat can i do....

just a small hangout wit olv and then dinner at sushi king wit my parents...

lou sang....

i love sushi king yeesang...

no coloring and much preservative but wit many salmon and scallop....

yum yum <3

heheheh

then the last few days...

busy finishing my 21 pages research report...

i finish it in like 3 days where as others take like 2 months since tchr gave  us like last december...

wat can i expect...

lousy me..

and and and~~~ 

tang tang tang tang ( imagine the sound urself) kakaka

SUPER JUNIOR IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!
LEEHYUKJAE IS COMING!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG...

hahahha

ss3 ss3 ss3 ss3 ss3~~~

next sat is the selling ticket day...

i hope i can grab the most front seats!!! yay!!!!

hehehe

cant wait for it =) hehehee

tata for now =) hehehehe

LEEHYUKJAE CAREFUL OR I GONA RAPE U!!!

25/01/2011

opps...i accidentally type 2010...heheh...
i guess i dont wan 2010 to over yea..
lame me....
its only around 5 more days to 30/01 =(
somehow around this time i really wan this day to over faster....
i know the day wont be any much special than other days...
it will just be normal wit nothing happen...
well thats wat happen every year....
wat can i ask more...
it doesnt bring any thing special nothing...
just an old rotten day....
i hope on that day i will be super busy...
working from day to night hoping to forget it...
i dont have anyone special to celebrate it with me or anything...
i just wan to shut myself in my room....
mayb i been bragging bout the date too much...
but well i just wan some to remember it but i guess i dont really have those special friends that are really willing to celebrate it wit me... =(
en en did ask me for dinner wit her...but then just her and me...
isnt it saddening though happy when theres someone to celebrate wit me...
but i cant do that...
she spend way too much this month so do i...
i cant hope that she will treat me anything...
that would be too much =x
mayb thats why i wan to go back ktn so soon...
i just cant face it...
the nearer it is to 30/01 the more emo i will be....

my dad say he willing to buy a perfume for me...
the one i been saying i wan to buy...
but one thing my dad duno...
i already use the money i save up last time to bought 1...
at a very cheap price...
if i buy it now i surely will spend around rm50 extra for the same thing...
so i was thinking whether to buy another 1 wit my dad money or just take the money and save it up??
i really dont wan to waste my dad's money anymore....
i spend way too much this month =x
around rm800...its double of wat i monthly spend...
i should be grounded =(
and i wan to go ss3....
i guess my dad gona pay for me that too =(
that means i gona use damn alot =(
canot canot!!!! my dad not working and soon my mum not working anymore..
then wer all the income will come!!!!
i cant spend that much anymore!!!!
i cant be a big spender!!!
studying here is too much already!!!
no!!!
there goes my emo blog..
i keep thinking am i looking down on my life??
or i shouldnt be here at all =x

two picture that i took for hyukie birthday album...

i duno wat happen to me but i just wan hyukie to know me =(

i guess i gona keep floating in my dreams =(

spam wit some hot guys pic that make me stay in my dreams....

on 30/01 they are being so far yet so near to me =(

can u guys wish me something to make me happy for once ?? =)

#np *banmal song- yonghwa
*7989-taeyeong &kangta
*snowy wish- snsd
*she wants it-super junior <3
*thrist- super junior <3
*its you- eunhyuk <3 =)