i really duno wat 2 say....
everything seems not right for me....
my holidays are ruin...
btw why do i care much bout my holiday in ktn??
it just suck....
haiz...
everything are terrible for me....
its been 4 weeks i'm here....
i duno wat happen to me...
for 4 weeks straight not a
everynight i surely wake up half way....
or mayb i will have dreams....dreams that make me cant sleep well.....
its been the same thing for the 4 weeks...
when will i be able to sleep nicely....
i wan to go back ktn....
to sleep at my nice and soft bed....
my parents come to visit me yest....
have fun shopping coz i can shop witout paying...
its been a long time since i get to shop....
i been trying to save as much money as possible...
i hardly get to shop for a long time...
each time i was worry i dont have enough money etc....
haiz....
i make sure i dont spend extra rm10 a day....so that the most i spend each month is only a bout rm300~400...
dont you know how hard was dat???
if i spend almost rm10 already for the day...
i have to skip dinner...
my dad nvr say how much was my monthly allowance...
but then i dont dare to ask a lot from him...
sending me study here is already very exp...
i cant ask for more....
especially my dad already retired and my mum goin to retired soon....
saving money is really difficult...
especially see my frens that can spend as much as they want without worry...
can keep on buy things etc....
but then i cant get to buy anything....
i'm still doubting whether to get the bonamana ver c....
rm80 isnt something cheap...
rm80 would be enough for my food for a week....
sumore wan to save for ss3....rm 400~600 ticket...
that huge amount would be enough for my 1 month allowance....
nextly make my heartache the most is my cousins....
looks like i'm really invisible??
if there are anything they nvr ask me anything at all....
i noe wai wai have car here already...been driving around...
i'm staying much closer to him than suyi..
but yet he offer suyi to back to ktn wit him but nvr ask me...
hey i'm in kl also k...
they always to and fro from ktn...
thats so nice....
i also wan k....
i also wan to go back ktn....
why???
why??
am i that not noticeable??
i really wish i was nvr born to this life...
nvr have to face all these...
all these years have been invisible for my cousins....
they are my cousins...arent they suppose to be close wit me???
why??
i noe i'm only child...
that makes me communicate less...
well better to say communication isnt the best thing for me...
i dont really know how to talk much....
i'm more like the silent type...
anti sosial...
bt isnt cousin should be helping and be more close???
all i can do is just dream...
keep dreaming dream that will nvr happen....
dream dream dream...
i really wan to be close wit them....
the time i have wit them is really fun....
but yet i'm more like invisible to them...
i duno wat else to say...
all i can do is just dream =(
lastly a thing that is like a knife being stab to my heart is ="( (click the link emotion please )
omg....
when i see this...
i duno wat 2 say...
saddening...haiz....
the pic looks so hot but yet seeing him...duno wat 2 say...
haiz...
got to make my mood be better...
new roommate coming in 2moro...
dont wan her to see my phathetic looks...haiz....
bye =(
ss3hwaiting!!
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