30/01/2011

thats the day...
super junior decided to have an extra concert there...
30/01/2011
thats is my birthday too~~ =(
awww
i seriously i wan to go..
i already miss ss2 msia and yet ss3 msia might be cancel...
this is my very last chance to see them
only god know when is the next time they will be back super junior 13+2
it will take years...
i wan to go so much...
its my birthday....
this is my only wish.....
but then to go there are so many problems..
problems that are hard to solve...
firstly wer can i get the ticket....
wer i can find ppl wit ocbc card to help me to buy ="(
or anyone wit samsung hp under singtel....
wer can i find such person...
for sure my cousins dont have...
haiz...
then...
if i reeally can get the tickets....
who i wan to go with???
who i wan share the hotel room wit....
i have no idea at all.....
hotel rooms are easily available...
i can get my mum book for me anytime...
but who to share wit???
alone...
i dont think my mum would let then....
transport to go is a no prob coz i dont mind sitting bus alone...
i been doing that a few times....
if i go and stay wit my cousin....
she may say i can stay there
but wat if suddenly her house owner dont let like wat happen to ah wai and ah khoon???
then how....
in the middle of day or night i alone have to go out and find place to stay....
all the problems that i have to think of...
i dont mind goin alone but surely my parents dont let...
even if i stay in my another cousin house in jb...
how i wan to go singapore???
ask them send me there???
who am i...
why they would help me ="(
if i get ticket i still have plenty of problems....
i may get permission from my parents...
but there are still so many things that i have to think of...
ask my dad send me down and stay wit me???
that surely cant..
my dad is already 60 and his eyes got some problems....
so i never wan him to fetch me anywer....
and my dad keep asking me if he die wat would i do...
seriously that question scare me more and more...
i noe my dad have health problems...
and i cant do anything...
all i do everyday is just worrying....
why i dont have any siblings....
but i cant blame my parents at all ="(
how how....
this just make my chance to go lesser~~~
but deep in my heart i wan to go ="(
i dont know wat will happen...
i dont know anything....
all i'm doin now is siiting here typing this and cry....
this is just way too frustrating...
if i cant go~~~
i guess i goin to celebrate my birthday miserably again...
that wat just happen every year~~
just cant help it~~
and next year knowing that ss3 is on~~
just make my day even worse =(
and i so hate it~~
LEEHYUKJAE u make me frustrated!!
and i cant do anything to make it better =(
how can i continue support them~~~
i dont know wat else to say~~~
i guess another sad post if not goin...
hate my life =x