major breakdown =(
not in anything but its my own....
my ownself....
i dont know wat to do at all liao...
i feel like i'm so useless...
nothing can be done perfectly on time and nothing is done nicely...
everything last minute and all the crappy stuff =(
really really feel like dying...
team up with joanne and ch...
cant say its the best idea or the worse idea..have the pros and cons that i cant say anything on...
joanne is good but her things are way too last minute..its like last minute punya last minute...
ch things all is perfect
and i agree
I"m very redundan...
i very stupid and useless...
i cant get anything done correctly or at least make it good...
everything i do and say is just wrong...
so so wrong...
when he say i'm redundan..
i realise...yes...that was me...stupid and redundan and most importantly useless...
being in a group with them makes me think that seriously i'm going to cause them become worse...
i will just hoi sei them only....
no wonder no one wan to be in a group with me at all...
even ch didnt say much about me..
i guess next sem i'm not seeing him liao since i so cha...
no one will wan me...
me so redundan how can i be here...
my parents put too much high hope on me...
wat i scare most is seeing dissapointment on their faces...
i dont wan the same thing happen during spm result...
my parents agree to send me to sunway..
thinking i will be good here..and when the result is out, all they get is just dissapointment...major dissapointment =(
i really dont wan that to happen..i have to keep it and be better..be like ch or other ppl..
study harder...
like wat my mum told me, i can be good but its just i'm lazy....
my laziness is overtaking me...
i gotta change that.
it wont lead me to anywhere only cause me negative effect...
when my cousin sms last night...
telling me how good my nephew is doing...
brian get no 3 while vincent get no7...
its a good achievement for them.expecially brian..he really improve a lot....so good....
last time he might not be so good, and now he is improving more and more...
it seems that i manja them is not wrong..it can make them be better...
i glad they score well...
i hope i can be like them again..score well and make my parents proud...
i never score that well b4...
since standard 4 after i get no 1 in class, i really turn to the worse....
i dont know wat got into me but all i know it become me now...
the worse side of...
the side that is not good at all..
if my nephew can do it why can i....
surely i can change...and i should change for the better...
i should have higher will now and be much better...
pray for me and hope that i can get 65% for each subject to maintain my scholarship and so that my parents will continue let me study here...
*pray hard*
thank u =)
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