post for today...part 2...
thats shows how many things just goes in my mind and non is good..
hmm mayb i should fill here up on wat i did for my 3 months break..
well for 2 months i work..at accouting firm in my hometown..Wang & Co..
well can i just say it sucks...
as usual..being my quiet self...well 1 thing, i cant communicate well at all...
they were speaking all in cantonese or mandarin..seriously thats why worse language...
so i just be super quiet for the 1st month..plus i'm the only 1 newbie there...seriously who i wan to mix with..everyone is my senior..and i respect them very much ok..thats why i dont talk much and dont know wat to talk with them at all.. =( emo emo..haiz...
till feb..my second month there..
haiz..trainees came in....but i didnt mix well with them too except for 1...
they were like sitting together so they do mix well..but me..sitting with the senior and especially 3 senior who work the longest there...wat can i say..
i cant say anything much =(
emo emo...but glad i work and meet 1 friend there..better than nothing..still contacting her and pity her..
office full of conflicts and issues...mainly all ladies there except for 1 old uncle..so with ladies...conflict...backstabbing...nothing to be done and nothing can be said...haiz...
and suyi..being ignorance to me..i'm always her last priority...
and yet why am i treating her so good...
haiz..i shouldnt think so much or i'm going to lose another friendship....
seriously i'm a emo girl.no wonder no one wants to mix with me..
i just make their mood goes down..
haiz..can see how useless am i...haiz haiz...
and here i am...can i say things as lazying??
should be studying and cover another 1 subject at least 1 chapter today...
and here i am...blogging..haiz...am i being too much??yeap yeap..i'm just being too much and over..
i can never ignore my studies..
i'm a stupid girl..i need sleep more than other ppl, and the time i'm not sleeping..
i'm online-ing or laze around...seriously its my 2nd year of degree already!! i need to study hard!!!
but but i always comfort myself...haiz..saying that i didnt more than the past sem..but i definately know that it isnt enough...my result is bad.. and i cant repeat it anymore..here i am..yawning...signal for me to sleep soon but yet i hvnt read finish...hvnt accomplish my target today..haiz..
now u can see how useless i am??lol...
and 1 more things make me feel worse..
the amount of money i spend..in lifespan 1 month??excetly 1 month...i used rm 910 and i havent add in rm 387 for books and rm 240 for my new harddisk...
seriously u see!!the amount of money i spend!!! its totally over!!! i can use this amount of money for 3 months or 3 and half month last time!!!
gosh got to go back to previous time..
spend wisely and little..
got to diet as well..
gosh i'm such a big fat pig..so i desperately need to slim down too!!!
so back to my target?rm 75 per week??well can i add extra rm 10 for my favourite moo cow frozen yogurt??hvnt eat that for around 2 weeks already..and i'm missing it..i wan to eat more...
seriously look at the amount i spend!! and theres so much more things i wan to try!!!
why why!?!?! i seriously broke now..haiz..emo emo...
haiz....been yawning non stop..
got to sleep!!! but before that..i got to finish reading the chapter 1st!!! if not i cannot sleep!!
gosh i wonder how those ppl manage their time and life..time to study,time in class, time for outing, and time for clubs activities??
gosh i feel like 24 hours is totally not enough for me..its my 4th week and starting the 5th week soon..and i'm so slow...hvnt do notes for the past lectures.got to get it cover up soon or i'm not going back hometown for the 1 week break..got to study hard this sem!!! >< ish...haiz..
got to go...its time...time to study >.< haiz..emo emo..bye bye
my words everyday now is emo emo..
hahahaha
i'm a emo girl..wish i die soon =) bye..
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